The denial sent a fresh wave of heat through me. Not because I was being rejected, but because I recognized his restraint as necessary caretaking. He cared enough to say no, thinking of me first.
"Will you touch me too?" I asked, voice muffled against his skin.
Ezra's hand stilled in my hair. "Tell me exactly what you want, Micah. Be specific. I need to know how and what you want to feel."
I flushed hot, but something in his tone told me there would be no moving forward without answering. The thought of speaking my desires aloud made my cock throb against his stomach.
"I want..." I swallowed hard. "I want what you did yesterday. Your fingers inside me. Finding that spot that turned pain into something sacred." The confession came out in a rush, my face burning against his chest.
"And why do you want that?" His voice was gentle but insistent.
"Because I…” I trailed off, trying to find the words. “I never understood before yesterday what people meant when they spoke of religious ecstasy. After yesterday, I think I’m beginning to understand.”
His fingers resumed stroking my hair. "Then I think you’re ready for something more." His thumb traced my lower lip. "Do you trust me, Micah?"
“Yes, of course.”
He took my hand. "Then come with me. I have much more to show you."
Micah
In the bedroom, Ezraopened a sleek black case from the closet. Inside, nestled in velvet, lay a row of toys arranged by size—small to formidable—alongside a bottle of lubricant. My stomach fluttered with nervous anticipation.
“We’ll have to train your body to take me,” he said, tone clinical but warm. “We’ll start small. Ease you in.”
He set the case on the nightstand, and I started to unbutton my shirt.
“Let me,” he said, gently brushing my hands aside.
He undressed me slowly, methodically. When I was naked, he stepped back and looked. Not with hunger, but with reverence. His gaze traced me from head to toe and back again.
“Beautiful,” he murmured, and began to undress.
I watched, transfixed. Each inch of skin revealed made my mouth dry with want. When he stood fully naked before me, Ifinally saw what I’d only felt: the lean muscle of his thighs, the smooth plane of his stomach, the heavy curve of his cock resting between his legs.
He took my hand and led me to the bed. Propped against the headboard, he guided me to lie across his lap. One arm supported my head, the other rested on my hip.
The heat of his skin against mine was dizzying. My side was pressed flush to his chest, cock brushing the firm plane of his stomach. Sensitive skin to sensitive skin. Intimate. Exposed. Electric.
Without waiting for permission, I brought my mouth to his nipple. It responded instantly beneath my tongue, tightening as I suckled. The rhythm came instinctively—primal, grounding, like muscle memory older than thought.
Ezra looked down at me, eyes dark with something between hunger and tenderness."That’s it," he murmured, stroking my hair. "So beautiful like this."
His free hand roamed in slow, aimless patterns—over my shoulder, my ribs, the hollow of my waist. Every touch sent electricity skimming across my skin.
"Your body is sacred," he whispered, voice low like a prayer. "Do you know that? Every inch of you is holy ground."
Words that would’ve made my grandmother recoil. Words that felt truer than any sermon I’d ever heard.
His touch drifted lower, over the curve of my ass, possessive and reverent in equal measure. I moaned around his nipple, mouth working harder, caught in the rising tide of want.
"God made this body," Ezra said, his fingers sliding down the back of my thigh, then up again, teasing closer. "Made it for pleasure. For worship. Anyone who told you differently was wrong."
When his hand finally cupped my cock, I gasped against his skin. He didn’t stroke. Just held me there, like I was something precious.
"Look at you," he said, gaze full of awe. "So proud. So perfect. There’s not a single part of you that isn’t worthy of love."
The words themselves were almost as arousing as the touch. To hear parts of me that had only ever been shamed now celebrated made my whole body ache.
