For fuck’s sake.
This isn’t how I usually go about business. Especially not with Jade,definitelynot with Jade.
Fuck no. She’s a little hottie, there’s no doubt about it, but I’ve never seen her as more than a friend. She’s sweet and pure and all the things I’m not. And here she is fixing breakfast and making me cups of coffee, and I’m locked in my bathroom jonesing for the one girl I can never have and didn’t even know I wanted.
It’s a bad fucking idea. I need to be stronger than my head, and stronger than my body’s reaction to her. I glance down again to the lump, knowing there’s only going to be only one way to get rid of this so I can take her ice skating in peace. Fuck knows how I’m going to go at the dance lesson she has lined up for us later.
I just need to take deep breaths and shut out all illicit thoughts. I’ve spent a lifetime burying how I really feel about shit most of my life, so this shouldn’t be much different or too hard to handle. I need to bang one out and then let it go.
Simple as that.
It’s worked in the past whenever I’ve had someone stuck in my head a little longer than I usually would have.
I drop my pants right here and now before I even make it to the shower. The waistband of my sweats sits somewhere near my mid thighs, enough to get my cock out, anyway. I’m facing the mirror with my back pressed into the door. I pull off my shirt and toss it to the ground. Taking a firm grip on my length, I start to move my hand up and down with swift strokes and a matching, fluid movement of my hips.
Fast and hard should do it, then it’ll all be over.
Guilt tries to flood my mind that Jade is out in my apartment, mere metres away, but I close my eyes regardless as my brain goes back to that night.
Jade’s tiny body swaying to the beat of the music while I held her close, those little hips swirling to our own rhythm. Our body heat said everything that was going on between us. The way she started to reciprocate my advances. The way she asked me;Can you tell me what that is sticking into my back?
I groan out loud at the thought of those words on her sweet lips. Had I not known her identity I’d have fucked her that night, no question about it. Maybe we wouldn’t have even made it out of the bar.
I’d have brought her back here and had my way with her every way she’d let me.
It was so damned sweet kissing her. When I had her alone in the hallway and our mouths collided, I found another world waiting there. A world I wanted so fucking bad to break right open. Even now, I’m fighting it, because that night ignited the spark, and I can’t seem to extinguish it. There is no extinguishing it.
Even if I wanted to pursue her, I couldn’t. Given the fact she’s Tanner’s sister is one thing, but there’s another major part to it; the fact I can’t let go or give in.
To do that would mean I’d have to bust myself in two and let down some of my guards, and I can’t allow that to happen. Not even for her.
I crack an eye open and watch the spectacle ofJay fucking Jeffersongiving it to himself, thinking about Tanner’s little sister while she’s right there down the hall. Getting off to the thoughts of her sexy body and her hot kisses is a one-time thing. Her hard nipples through that tank. Her soft voice. Her sweet pussy…
One time. One fucking time. Then that’s it.
“Jesus, fuck,” I mutter. I’m so fucking close I’m going to go off like a rocket any second.
My hand works furiously, leaning back against the door as I move. Hopefully she can’t hear me. I mean, it’s a large apartment, and she’s at the other end of it. I think.
I want it to be her here with me, bent over the cabinet as I lift her hips up and sink into her divine sweet heat from behind. I’d make it so damned good. I’d pay her body so much attention…
The thought alone of grabbing her tits from behind, holding them while I plow into her tightness, just about sends me to orbit. Seeing her lust filled face in the mirror, her body contouring to mine, is enough for me to sag against the door in surrender as my orgasm pulls from somewhere from the depths of Hell, or maybe it could be Heaven, who knows.
Wherever I’m channeling from rings out in epic flows over my body, as I spill my seed over my torso in hot spurts. I try to make it as muffled as I can, but I’m not known for being quiet in bed, or when I pleasure myself. Though usually I’m alone for that.
I still as I close my eyes, reveling in the sweet release. The one I know I needed and the one that’s going to put Jade Jones into the back of my mind now.
It’s done. Caput.
I don’t need to taint her with any more of the illicit thoughts I suddenly have going on with her. She wouldn’t want that or be into it. Our sexy dance was just a pleasant accident, a sweet little mistake.
I’ll take her ice skating and for a dance lesson like nothing ever happened.
But first I need to wash myself and wash all thoughts away of doing anything but be a gentleman to myLittle Princess.
CHAPTER 5
Jay
