I trembled at the thought. He must have seen my reaction as he stopped and said, “I need you to trust me.”
I had no choice, really. He was all Sam and I had. I glanced up at him and stilled. “I want you.”
He kissed my nipples, taking his time. They hardened from his attention, and intense heat filled me. His mouth met mine for another kiss, and my heart whispered that I cared about him.
He'd never pressured me, and that just made him hotter.
The kiss ended, and he asked, “What do you want?”
I could barely believe any of this was real as I whispered in his ear, “Everything.”
He lowered himself, and my body quivered as his finger entered me.
He’d waited years to have sex with me again, and yet he had all this self-control. My eyelids fluttered. He'd waited for me.
Contractions grew in my body, and I sighed. He went deeper with his thumb and found my clit. My body quickly rocked into an orgasm, like I’d been waiting for him too.
My body writhed but I realized he hadn’t joined me in having an orgasm.
When my eyes opened, he was staring at me with what looked like wonder. I tensed. This morning, we hadn’t gone past this point. I felt close to him, though I wasn’t sure any of this was real.
I wanted to tell him that I ached for him, but before I could, he lowered himself. I opened my legs and braced for impact.
His lips and tongue met my core, and my fingers curled in his hair.
I’d intended to satisfy him, but Elon must have remembered my body. He knew how to turn the heat back on. I moaned as another orgasm built. I needed him to stop. I needed to satisfy him, but I lost that thought as pleasure coursed through me.
I was his.
As I came to, and I processed that we’d not…. I met his gaze. He looked down at me and said, “I lo—”
"This is just sex." I cupped his hard, ready dick.
He shook his head. “I want to make love to you, Clarissa.”
Tears had formed in my eyes after I cut off what he was about to say, but I needed to do this. I'd never been this close to anyone. I nodded and massaged his cock then started to direct him inside me.
He stopped me. “Are you sure this is what you want?”
“Yes,” I said, and he reached for something beside his bed.
For a moment, I wasn’t able to breathe. Then I saw the condom wrapper. The last time we'd had sex, we’d not bothered with that. He took the condom out of the package, and I helped him slip it on his dick.
A moment later, he entered me. Fireworks was too tame a word for how I felt. I was in ecstasy.
22
Clarissa
My eyes flitted open. I lay beside Elon on his bed. I glanced out the window and saw the moon was still visible in the sky.
My heart contracted in my chest. I wasn’t supposed to be here, although the time we'd shared had been amazing.
Elon made my body burn. I didn’t regret anything… except leading him on.
We were friends with benefits. I couldn’t offer more, which was why I needed to get up.
I slid out from under the sheets and landed with a thud on the floor. I cringed when Elon looked down at me. “Where are you going?”
