Moving slowly but surely, inch by inch, I enter her tight and glorious pussy. It takes everything in me to take it slow. Letting her adjust to my size, I wait until she urges me to move with the rocking of her hips.Quickening my pace to please her, the sound of our hips meeting fills the room. I bend down and kiss her as I fill her again and again.
And that’s when it hits me.
This woman owns me.
She fucking owns me.
Always has, always will.
She just has no idea of it yet.
16
ROSE
Gorgeous, if you keep doing that, I’m not sure I can wait any longer. You’re killing me here.
Come for me, Rose.
Look at me as I enter you. I need to see your eyes, gorgeous.
My mind plays Eli’s words from last night on repeat. It all seems like a dream. Honestly, I never expected sex to be an emotional and raw experience. Not before I reunited with him.
Sure, our first time was something similar, but we had no idea what we were doing. I always categorized it as normal as far as losing your virginity goes.
Having a man in my life that treats me like a queen has changed everything. Well, at least how I see sex and intimacy. I used to be reluctant to do anything beyond cuddles and kisses. Anything sexual was something I dreaded. But when my dates started suggesting more, I clammed up. I couldn’t get words out or tell them that I don’t want sex. So, I just went along with them.
Now I see how wrong that was. I don’t blame myself, my partners should have treated me differently as well. Like Eli once said, those men werefuckboys.They had no idea how to treat their dates right.
How I did not see the signs earlier, beats me. My previous sexual partners often texted me saying,let me know when you’re free,orwe should hang out soon.But they never actually set the time or place for that. They also disappeared for days and never introduced their friends.
The most obvious red flag should have been that they never cared for my pleasure. Only for their own. The act lasted as long as it took them to come. There was no foreplay. For that reason, sex freaking hurt at times. I hated having it for years because of my bad experiences.
Eli making sure that I come before intercourse is everything. It relaxes both my body and mind. Everything feels much better that way. In the past, I don’t know how I agreed to sex without foreplay. Such a travesty.
I also want to know that all my needs arenota problem. It’s time to let my guard down and trust him with my heart. Like I did once before. I just hope the results are different this time.
* * *
I talk with Marianne about doing the photoshoot for the article and Andrew signs off on it the next day. Once we get to Marianne’s studio for the shoot a week later, Ifinallyintroduce her and Eli. Seeing these two people who mean so much to me together warms me up from the inside.
Marianne has set up two different settings for today. There’s a professional setting with a neutral light background. I think we’ll take close-ups with that. My favorite is the other more relaxed setting with an emerald green velvet sofa and a diamond-patterned backdrop. Eli’s dark gray suit goes with it perfectly.
Marianne suggests that Eli take off his suit jacket for the portraits. When he does, I’m not the only one admiring his body. It shows that he takes care of it with exercise and the proper diet even when he is wearing a shirt over those abs of steel.
Trying to focus on something else, I read through my work emails while sitting on the sofa near the entrance. Occasionally, I can feel Eli watching me. At least he is whenever I turn his way.
Marianne uses those moments to get the shots where he’s smiling freely without any barriers. What I have come to realize during our time together is that Eli Dalton dislikes being in the center of attention. He just loves what he does and doesn’t care if others like him or not. If he could, I bet Eli would do everything again without any recognition and less money.
He, of course, enjoys the perks that money has brought him, but it isn’t why he does it.
Eli wears his suit jacket again after the portraits. He does as told and doesn’t say anything the entire time. His whole expression changes from neutral to unpleasant. He isn’t enjoying this at all.
Watching his face for a while, I finally speak. “Marianne, could I please have a moment alone with Eli?”
She nods and signals her assistant to follow her out of the room. I walk closer to my man and try to catch his attention. Nothing. Eli looks like he would like to be anywhere but here.
When he looks at me, I smile, “I’ll make sure you enjoy what comes after if you get this over quickly. Trust me, Eli, you don’t want to miss what I’ve planned.”
