Everything has been better since moving to the big bus and that surprises me. I guess I expected living with a bunch of dudes—fame induced, spoiled, overgrown boys—would be more taxing than it has been. Maybe I’m turning into an overindulged rock star myself just by being in their presence, but I do love the fully stocked and functioning kitchen, the shower with hot water, and a bed nook with no worries about a drunk and horny old man trying to invade my personal space.
Well ... I don’t completely trust that one of these assholes isn’t gonna try something. It’s not that they haven’t been totally respectful. They have. Not so much appropriate, because they’re not. In fact, every hour that passes they talk to me more and more like one of the guys, but that’s fine by me. Deep down, my gut knows these men would never hurt me. No, they’ll likely hurt someone who tries to hurt me, and I’m not used to that kind of protection or safety. Call it my inability to trust men in general. Or maybe just too many years on my own.
But there is one thing ...
They’re fucking with me. I’m almost completely certain.
It all started the day I changed buses.
I don’t have an extensive collection of color in my clothing, but when it comes to undergarments I’m worse than a diva set loose with a Victoria’s Secret credit card. I like pretty lace and satin, colors and patterns. Not that anyone ever sees them because I haven’t met a boy I’d like to screw since my sophomore year of college, but that’s not the point. The panties, they’re for me, my expression of femininity. And I’m down ten of my favorite pairs.
It’s possible I’ve misplaced them. But more likely Iz, Austin, Sean, or Trent have been pirating my belongings and taking home the treasure.Fuckers. I’m sure whoever is up to this prank is expecting me to go off on a rant, or ask for my underwear back, but that’s not going to happen. No, I’ll wait them out—catch them in the act—and then they’ll feel the wrath of a woman who’s been fucked with. And surely regret it.
Only it’s getting expensive sneaking off to the mall at each stop to replenish my drawer, and we aren’t even a third of the way through this tour. Sure, I could buy some cheap economy pack of plain ones, but I don’t want to wear those. Or I could call them out. Try to end this now. Make livid accusations and veiled threats about panties, but that feels like giving up—or giving in to their expectations. And I don’t do that. I won’t be what others expect.
After playing Chicago last night, the guys went out to hit the nightlife before we rolled out. But they lost Austin for a few hours and we left the stadium completely off schedule. I didn’t go out with the band. Secretly, I relished the extra time after the show to unwind in blissful solitude. But Bedo, he was livid, and I could hear every word from behind my sleeping curtain as he gave the boys a verbal thrashing when they returned, drunk off their asses, in an Uber sometime after four o’clock this morning.
Now we’re somewhere between Illinois and North Carolina and the afternoon sun bleeds through the shades on this rather uneventful drive. I grab a cheese stick and a bottle of water from the fridge before settling into one of the open recliners.
Austin’s playing a video game and I watch for a little while before I get bored. Sean’s engrossed in whatever he’s doing with his laptop, and quite frankly I have no desire to investigate what’s on the screen. Trent’s enjoying the privacy of his own room. Probably taking a nap, the lucky bastard.
Iz stumbles from his bunk and growls a “good mornin’,” even though it’s closer to sundown. He pops open the fridge and rummages around until he produces a can of beer. With a flip of the tab he takes a pull, one that lasts longer than I can hold my breath, and sets it down with a loud belch. “’Scusa me.”
“Iz, you’re such a caveman.” Sean shuts the laptop and leans back along the bench seat at the table.
“Why? Cuz I don’t know how ta type on one’num fancy ’puters?”
We all direct our attention to Iz as his face puzzles, brow knit, and begins to laugh in his deep throaty way.
“One’num’num ...Sheeet... I’m fucked up.”
Sean tilts his head. “What did you smoke last night, Iz?”
“Fuck, I dun’nut even know.” He opens and closes his mouth wide as if that will somehow help his words come out better.
“Iz, that stuff’s gonna kill you,” I say, more than a little worried.
He meets my stare with an unfocused gaze, but his speech is better when he finally talks. “Don’cha worry ’bout me. I’m just fine. Been doin’ worse for years.” He laughs again, this time louder, and saunters down the short hallway to the bathroom. Moments later the shower clicks on.
“Should someone check on him? He okay in there alone?” I glance at Austin and Sean.
Austin’s back to his gaming controller, eyes stuck on the television screen. “I’m not going in there. Iz with clothes on is ugly enough.”
He’s no help. I turn to Sean. “He always like this?”
“High as fuck?”
“No. Unable to live a day without something between his lips.”
Trent appears at the hall entrance, his long, wavy hair all ruffled and falling in his eyes as if he just walked off the set of a cologne advertisement. Fucking gorgeous without doing a damn thing. I look away.
“Right? You’d think he’d suck dick the way he’s always got something in his mouth.” Trent’s lips lift in a grin and he grabs a protein shake from the fridge, joining Sean at the table but rotating in his seat to meet my glare.
“Did you get a look at him?” I lift my eyebrow and flick my lip ring, “Dicks don’t make you feelthatgood.”
Trent’s smile pulls wider. “I feel as though I should take offense to that comment on behalf of cocks everywhere, but I think the lady is right. I’ve never fucked a girl who looked that happy afterward.”
Sean laughs and I can’t help but give in to a smile.
