I wanna see Matt like the rest of The Boys
who’ve accepted me for me,
who are ready to defend me,
but I can’t help but see Matt differently.
I can’t help but feel sad for Matt,
knowing he’s still denying his sexuality.
I can’t explain it properly,
but whenever Matt denies himself,
it’s like he’s denying a part of me,
the part of me that wants to love him
as more than friends.
More Hurt Than Angry—After School—Granny’s Kitchen
“Why didn’t you tell me the truth?”
T seems more hurt than angry.
“I love you, cuz, and I accept you.”
“It wasn’t the right time,” I say, embarrassed.
Of course T loves and accepts me.
“I hear you, cuz, and I respect that,
but I stopped seeing Jyoti because of it.
And now you’ve come out at school,
she thinks it makes everything cool.”
“Well, I guess it’s cool with me,” I say.
I knew I was coming out to the entire school
by coming out in the lunch hall
where anyone could’ve overheard.
“Do you wanna get back with her?” I ask.
“I do.” T sighs. “But it’s not that simple.
I’m already talking to two other girls.”
“Well, can’t you just tell them
you’re getting back with your girlfriend?”
