She wanted him. She wanted this. He was doing it for her, and yes, he liked it. But it wasn’t about his own pleasure. If Rue hadn’t asked, he wouldn’t be here.
Hell, he’d done a good job of keeping himself occupied with other women all these years. She was theone who’d led the change, and there were boundaries on the change, so it was safe.
And anyway, it would be over after this week.
Natural light poured into the room, and with the backdrop of the snow, that white light all over her glorious pale skin had him all messed up.
He was already hard, like he hadn’t just come less than a half hour ago.
He set her down on the bed, and she looked at him, her eyes greedy.
“I’m going to tell you something,” she said, her expression almost comedically grave.
“Okay.”
“I think I probablydohave a gag reflex. I don’t want to disappoint you.”
He laughed, because his brain was sort of tripped up. On the implications of all that. On everything.“What?”
“I didn’t understand it before.” She looked at him meaningfully. “But I do now. I get it.”
“Oh?”
He still wasn’t entirely sure he understood what she was saying, because he was still too strung out on the whole implication of the moment. “You’re so much bigger,” she said.
“Dammit,” he said, the words like a punch to the gut.
It wasfuckinghot. Hearing those words come out of his best friend’s mouth. It shouldn’t be. Damn, it probably made him the worst kind of pervert. But it was just so damned hot.
“Let’s get you on your knees and test that, shall we?”
Her eyes never leaving his, she slid off the edge of the bed, and got to her knees. He never prayed forforgiveness in his life, but he was close. Real close, just so he could relax and enjoy the rest of it. Because there was no way this wasn’t a sin. But damn. He wanted to drown in it.
She wrapped her hand around the base of him, before leaning in and taking him into her mouth. “Shit, Rue,” he said, reaching back to take hold of her hair, guiding her lips along his shaft.
The sight of her, her, doing that to him pushed them too far too fast. It was just too good. And he didn’t... he didn’t want to end this way. She tried to take him. All of him, but she couldn’t. And it was wrong that that satisfied him. Made him feel like beating his chest. But it did.
It nearly finished him off. Nearly undid him. He pulled her head away, needing to get ahold of himself.
“But I want...”
“I want you,” he said. Because he couldn’t think of anything else more eloquent to say. Because there was just nothing more in him. He was used to being the one who had the control. Used to being the one that did the pushing. Hell, he’d done that a bit with her earlier, but there was something more to it. A bite. An edge that he’d never known before.
That was a big part of why he liked to make his partners boneless with need. It gave them the upper hand.
He lifted her up to her feet and crushed her against him, walked her back to the wall and flattened her against it, kissing her hard.
“Justice,” she whispered against his mouth.
“Yes,” he said. “Say my name. And don’t forgetwho’s taking you.”
“I can’t. I couldn’t.”
“Good.”
He was wild with it. This need inside of him. He was completely undone. And he wanted her to join him.
He put his hand between her legs and found her slick with wanting for him.
