When he regained control of his tight lips and furrowed brow, he looked down at her.And she swore he was studying her lips.But the room was only dimly lit, so she couldn’t be sure.
“But those weren’t the consequences I was talking about.”
“Oh?”
“If you seek out an assignation, you could end up…pregnant.”
Her hand rushed up to grab her neck as something exploded within her.The deep timbre of Edward’s voice, so close to her, alone in this room.The idea of an assignation.Pregnancy.Her legs were turning to mush.
“Are you alright, Lenora?”He stepped back to give her air, eyes scanning about, perhaps for a drink of any kind that might be tucked away.
“I’m fine,” she croaked out.
“I can—”
Her free hand darted out to his lapel and pulled him in closer.Whatever he was about to do, she didn’t need.She neededhim.Closer.
“I want a baby,” she whispered, not even sure why she was admitting that in this moment.Of course she wanted a baby and a family.Edward already knew that about her.
His eyes flared with something.Something she desperately wanted to understand, for she had never seen his eyes look so dark.
“It’s best not to speak of such things unless you’re with your husband.”
“Alright, Edward.I won’t say it again.”Not one to normally retreat so quickly, she thought she might have felt more frustrated to back down.But not here.Not now.It was as if she knew she were poking a beast if she continued discussions with him on having a baby.
“But just so you know, I wouldn’t have done that with anyone.I would have only…kissed.”
His palms flattened against the door, framing her face.“You might think that you would have stopped there.”
“I would have.”
“You don’t know that though, do you?”
“Not from personal experience.But even though I’ve never been kissed, I know I would have stopped there.”
Edward’s eyes looked crazed.Like something she had never seen before.Like he wanted to consume her.
And then he did the wildest thing.He dropped his hand from the door only to bring the pad of his thumb to her bottom lip while his fingers caressed her jaw.It was the exact gesture she would expect from a man just before he kissed her.But she didn’t have any proof to think that.
“There are so many different kinds of kisses though, Lenora.How do you know you would have stopped?”
Wrapping her fingers around his wrist heated her insides.More than ever before, there was a large fire inside of her.
It was almost as if it were a…thrill.
Then two words popped out of her mouth, “Show me, and I’ll know.”
Chapter 5
“Ican’tshowyou.”The four most difficult words to ever leave Edward’s mouth were strained.She didn’t know what she was asking for.Mostly because she didn’t understand the depths of his feelings.How if he started to kiss her he would be the one unable to stop.But not unable to stop in this moment, he wouldn’t be able to stop as in for all future references.As in, having kissed her once, he knew he would want to kiss her forever.
She couldn’t possibly know that, never mind feel the same way.
“Yes, you can.I’m asking you to.”Her voice was a breath on his jaw.
So innocent.So naive.
Needing distance, he started to push himself away from the door.“I can’t.”
