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I glide through, trying to be Seary and Surreal, confident and in control, but Siri Wright's heart, the little Alabama girl, is the one he is holding and threatening to break.I stare around the room.It's a small room with a couch, some chairs, and hooks for clothes.He shuts the door behind me.

"Let me take your coat."He helps me out of it and hangs it up."Sit."

I sit submissively, passively waiting for him to explain.He takes my hand in his and stares at it.I can see how hard this is for him to say.

"This is Hardcore's hideaway," he looks at me."This is his studio, and I owned that name in here.In here, I was hardcore, and I didn't care.They were only sex objects."He looks away, and the strain on his face breaks my heart.He looks at me, and there is real hurt in his eyes."I was such a fool to think my callous past wouldn't hurt you."He shakes his head."So, it's time to confess.Siri, I have had sex with hundreds of women.Not a few hundred.I'm talking on the plus side of 500."

My throat begins to close.Oh my!There are over 500 women to be jealous of?

He stands and starts to get undressed."Get naked."He commands me again."No clothes allowed past this point."He turns his back to me and begins to strip.

I watch as his mounds of muscles reveal themselves, and I visualize the hundreds of women that have received the same hard pounding from his perfect muscle that I have received!I stare at his ass and the thought of it pumping all those other women.Over five hundred!My God!He's 26 years old!My mind starts to calculate and gives it up.I'm too shocked to do the math.

He turns around to see me standing shell-shocked and clothed.He comes over to me and gently helps me take my beautiful gown off.When he turns and hangs it next to his, my mind races lightning fast.Siri, Seary and Surreal meet and battle for logical control over the emotions flooding my body.I put my hands in my hair.

You knew he had had sex with a lot of women!What difference does it make if it is 50 or 500?

Why are you acting this way?Siri Wright!You are a Fantasy Sex Diva who specializes in making sex unforgettable, For The Love of Zeus!You have watched hundreds, in the high hundreds, of men ejaculate!

Don't you dare judge him for this!

When Aurei turns around to face me, my thoughts go quiet.

He has the power to make the world fall away and completely disappear.Can I give that up?

I hold my hands out to him.

He stares at me for what feels like an eternity.His thunderous eyes pierce my core, and the wildness stays still, waiting, unsure what to do.He tells me as he walks past without touching me and without looking at me."Come in."He opens the door to his studio, flips on the lights, and walks through.He stands with his back to me, waiting for me to follow.

My heart wants to crack.Tears fall silently down, and I wipe them away angrily.Get a fucking grip!I coach myself.I grab control of my hysteria by taking deep, cleansing breaths.I look at the fucking muscle and see the Golden God I fell for when he walked away from me that first time in the lobby.Then our conversation replays from the elevator when he asked me.

"Isthere someone significant?"A man like you would rarely be turned down by any woman, available or not.I can only imagine the number of women you have seduced.And yet, here you areaskingif there is someone significant.Why?Why would it matter to you ifIhad someone special if I was willing to hook up with you anyway?Why were you seducing me so aggressively?

The simple truth stares me in the face.My body turns his body on like never before too!We do share an unusual physical connection.We do have a beautiful thing together.Our chemistry is undeniable.Perhaps this is the reason why.

We've each had to deal with the fact that we were born with a hyped-up libido.But now we have the opportunity to choose how we handle it.We can choose to be like everyone else and condemn ourselves, or we can choose to be different and celebrate how we were born, celebrate the gift of finding a partner who also needs a lot of sex, and celebrate that we want to share our life.

I have always prided myself on celebrating sex!I'm not going to be a hypocrite now.No one is perfect, but the man standing there is damn sure close to it.

I square my shoulders and decide.I'm not like other women.I don't care how many women he has had sex with.Or how many women I will face in the future who try to regain him.I won't be jealous!I won't be!I can do this!I can handle this!He fell for me!I was the only one whose name he has remembered!He even forgot Elena's.He chose me.

I smile with that acknowledgment, and my confidence begins to settle back into place.I'm the one he wanted so badly that he was willing to pay an outrageously high price to hook up!I'm the one he waited for to return to him.I'm the one he tried to deny when he discovered my virginity, wanting to protect me from his dark secret.Afraid it would destroy us.I'm the one.I'm his one!

I set my jaw.And by all the fucking Gods in Heaven,I choose to be his only.He is mine!He said I set him free.I know now from what!

He has 'satyriasis.'His sexual cravings are considered 'excessive.'

I shake my head.It is ridiculous to tell someone that.We are wired how we are wired.

I remember my confession to Cat.She was so sweet."I get it, Siri.High octane.High maintenance.You're a nymphomaniac, Baby Girl.It's ok.Sin City will be perfect for you.No one will judge you here."

"Yes!But I don't want to be a whore.I want to dance!Cat, that's why I have to remain untouchable!"

"Ok."She agreed, and that was that then she hugged me.

I stare at his beautiful body and wonder how anyone can say he is flawed.He is beautiful inside and out!I set him free from having to have so many to satisfy his appetite.Now, with me, he wants to be monogamous.How perfect is that?I do too!

I follow him in, close the door and stand silently behind him.The tension in the air between us is thick.