“Yes.” The one whispered word brings a rare, real smile to my face.
The trust in her gaze makes me feel slightly guilty, but it also makes me want to be better for her. It’s too late for me, but goddamn it if I don’t want to try.
“Good.”
I pull the lube out of the bag first. She gives a smile. Good, she knows what it is. I watch her eyes as I pull the next item out. A purple eight-inch dildo. I didn’t want to go too big for her, but I want her to know what a real man is supposed to feel like. Her eyes widen slightly, but again she just smiles. The last item is the one I’m most worried about. She liked what I did the other night, so I thought she might enjoy this, but I don’t know how she will respond. I pull the item out, and her smile turns to a look of confusion. She’s looking at it, trying to figure out what it is. I hand it to her and let her look at it.
“What is it?”
“An anal vibrator.”
She gasps and actually drops it onto the bed. I bought her a small, black anal vibrator to help enhance her experience. I didn’t think she would use it with me since I planned to break it off, but who better to teach her how to use it?
“Oh. Um. Wow.” She’s speechless as she looks at it.
Sitting next to her on the bed, I pick the toy up and place it in her hands with mine around hers. Then I turn it on, and she jumps.
“It will feel good. I promise. Do you trust me?”
She nods as she stares at the thing. When I chuckle, she looks up and glares at me. “Don’t laugh at me, Lorenzo. This is the first time I have seen one in person.”
I quirk my eyebrow at her. “Where else have you seen it, babe?”
A sly smirk fills her face even as it’s turning red. “Porn, of course.”
My mouth drops open. She watches porn? What the fuck?
“I do.” I realize I must have spoken out loud. “I’m not some innocent girl, Lo. I have toys too. I just never thought to buy this particular type.”
I shake my head as I chuckle. “Sorry. I guess I just didn’t expect it from you.”
“I have secrets, Lo. You don’t know everything about me.”
The same look of despair from earlier returns in her eyes, but she masks it quickly. I tuck that away for another time as I pick the toys and lube up and place them next to her on the bed.
“What kind of porn do you watch?”
I lie on my side next to her before sliding my fingers up the inside of her thigh. Goose bumps form on her skin, and I lean forward to kiss the ones on her shoulder.
“All kinds really. I don’t have a particular type, if that’s what you’re asking. I scroll through until one jumps out at me.”
“Mm,” I say against her skin. “What usually catches your attention?”
Her chuckle turns into a moan as I slide my fingers through her slick center.
“I really like when they’re rough. Nothing too extreme. Just hard fucking.”
My cock responds well to her statement, growing so hard it starts to hurt.
“Tell me more.” I push her shorts and underwear aside to insert one, then two fingers and lazily start to pump them. She rocks her hips onto my hands, attempting to speed up the pace.
“I love when the girl is giving a blow job and the guy places both hands on her head and pumps into her mouth all wild. It turns me on like crazy.”
“The ones when the girl has no choice but to take his entire length? The ones where she almost chokes on his cock? Those ones?”
“Oh, God. Yes!” she calls out as she rocks harder and faster.
I pull my fingers out, and she glares at me. I bring my fingers to her mouth and press on her lips. “Suck them dry and get them real wet, baby.”
