"Listen, Siri, I want us to work, so this is our call.If you fucked for fun, this wouldn't be so important.Fucking would be one of those things that we did while we got to know each other, but you don't.It's valuable to you.You have protected it all this time.I respect that."He kisses my nose."That blows my mind, Baby Thang."He kisses my eyes."That's why I said 'but' because you should know everything about me before you give it to me.I have secrets, and some say they are dark secrets."He hangs his head then rolls off onto his back, letting me go.
I follow him, rolling on top; straddling his abs, I sit on him."Aurei, are you listening to me?"
He lays still, and I know he's thinking of how bad and dark his secrets are and how he has to protect me from myself.
"Look at me," I command him."This is important."
He opens his eyes, and I lean forward to look directly into them."I've waited for someone like you all my life to take what is only mine to give.You hesitate because you don't know me.You don't know who I am.I am NOT innocent, far from it.I have secrets too.Big ones!That's why you couldn't connect in Vegas.And a lot of people say my secrets are dark too.But that's why we have secrets.To shield us, to protect us, from judgmental shits.The truth is that the dark is only dark until light shines on it.We are human.We are organic.We are who we are, and there is nothing wrong with us."I peck his lips, then put my finger on them to keep him quiet.I sit back up.
"Listen to me.Hear me.This is me speaking rationally, not emotionally."I smirk."Many, many, MANY men, and a few women, have tried and failed to tame my tail—more than you could possibly know.But I have always said no.Why?Because I knew in my heart here."I tap my human heart at my breast."And here."I tap my Blue Lovers Heart at my pussy."That there was … you."I tap his heart."I knew I would find you.If you want me, take me.I'm yours."
"Oh, I want you!"He says and flips me over."I've never wanted anyone as badly as I want you."He thrusts his tongue inside my mouth and possesses me.
I suck it down deep into my throat and massage it, not wanting him to stop again.
He moans but pulls away.
I see the word again on his face."But…."
"But you're a virgin."
I reach up and pull his head back down to my lips."I'm not like other women.I'm different.I think for myself."I tell him, echoing his own words, hoping to reach him with them."All that says about me is that I'm a disciplined person.My virginity is special to me.I haven't fucked any Tom, Dick, or Harry who wanted it.I love myself.I respect myself.I haven't betrayed myself.But I'm not innocent to sex.I love sex!Sex is a part of who I am.Sex is what I do!If you've seen me dance, you know that, but there is more you don't know.I have secrets too."I reach up to peck his lips.
He looks away and frowns.
"Aurei, I'm not afraid of your secrets."
He smiles, then rolls to his side, and I fall onto the bed.He stretches his entire body against mine, rests his head on his elbow, and studies my face."I believe you."He pushes my hair behind my ear, leans over, and kisses me again, not on my mouth, but all over my face.Sweet butterfly kisses."Courageous Thang.What a surprise you are.But my secrets are…."
"Don't say dark."I raise my eyebrows.
He chuckles, then starts kissing my shoulder.
Breathless, I ask."But your secrets are … complicated?"
"Mmmhmm."He continues to kiss me, moving down my arm.
"It's ok.I'm complicated too."
"I'll say!"He chuckles softly.
I roll my eyes."You have NO idea!"
He chuckles a little harder, then kisses my lips.When he stops, he leans back on his elbow and says seriously again."But I don't have just dark secrets that are complicated.My whole situation is complicated.There is much more to me, and you should know."
I roll onto my side too and face him."I hear what you're saying, and I understand fully what you mean.There is much more to me too."I take his cock in my hand and start to stroke it casually, and it grows instantly hard."My whole life is one big complicated secret."I sigh.Then nod my head at his cock."Look, you can't deny our chemistry either."
"No, I can't.I tried too.I did, but I've never felt this way about anyone before.No one has even come close."He touches my face, and I look into his eyes."You've changed everything for me."
I touch his face too."I appreciate your self-discipline too.I truly do.It means a lot to me that you don't want just sex or that I'm not just a fuck.I appreciate that you choose to get this right now that you understand what I'm giving you.But…."
He grins."But?"
I laugh."We have secrets, and our lives are complicated.But we are good together.Agreed?"
"Affirmative."
"And we are both choosing rationally, not emotionally, right?"
