The plan was simple. Come in, grab Courtney, go back home and bury my face in my book until I pass out. When I walked in, the last person I expected to see sitting at the bar drinking was Travis.
It’s not the time or place to be so confrontational, not while I’m so volatile, so I turn and rush through the crowd as he calls my name. I can’t do this anymore, and I have to stop it before I fall too far. Though I’m pissed at him, I’m madder at myself for even letting it get to this point. What the hell was I ever thinking?
Travis continues to call out my name, but I ignore him. Before I reach Courtney, he grabs my arm and pulls me to him. My body presses against his hard chest, and I suck in a deep breath before I meet his eyes. Travis searches my face, and for a moment, I can’t find any words. We are lost in a sea of bodies, the only two people on the dance floor not moving to the slow beat of the music. His skin touching mine almost burns, and I have to get away from him before I say something I’ll regret later.
“Release me,” I say with a voice full of venom.
“Not happening.”
I try to pull away from him, but his grip only tightens.
“Now,” I hiss, mimicking his tone from before.
But he doesn’t.
He gives me no other choice. I push against his chest, making him stumble back. His grip releases, giving me the chance to walk away and grab Courtney.
“It’s time to go,” I yell over the music.
I turn and look at Travis, who’s still standing where I left him, not taking a step forward.
“It’s time to go,” I repeat, pulling her through the crowd.
“Not yet,” she slurs. She has had way too much to drink.
“I can’t stay here another minute, Courtney. I have to go.” The air is thick, and my heart is ready to pound out of my chest.
“Where’s Travis?” She stumbles, and I catch her.
“We’re done. I don’t care where he is.”
She pulls her hand out of mine and stops walking. “I’m catching a ride with Chelsea. She’s right over there.” Courtney points at her friend, who waves at me, and now I’m even more frustrated than I was before as realization sets in.
“Did you know he was here?” I stop and ask her. Now I feel like it was a giant setup. I should’ve known better, known this was another one of Courtney’s antics.
All she does is giggle, giving herself away. “You’re both your own worst enemy. But I love you, Lola. Not in the girl-on-girl kind of way, though.” She giggles again, alcohol lingering on her breath. “I mean, if you ever wanted—”
“Oh God,” I interrupt before she can continue her rambling any longer. “You’re ridiculous.” I’m annoyed at her, but she leans in and gives me a hug anyway.
“I’ll see you later, okay? I have a designated driver. I’ll be fine. Make it right.” Courtney wiggles her little butt onto the dance floor and waves bye to me as I walk out the door, seething. All I can do is shake my head. Once the cool breeze hits my face, I finally feel like I can breathe again. I walk toward my car, my mind reeling and my body still screaming from being with Travis earlier. God. If only he would’ve listened to me and let me explain myself. This is all a giant fucking mess.
“Viola,” Travis yells across the parking lot.
“Do you ever go away?” I sigh as I unlock my car, but he catches up to me before I can open the door. I can smell the whiskey on his breath as he comes closer.
“Nope.”
“You’re not driving like this, Travis. Regardless of how mad I am at you right now.”
“Mad at me? For what exactly, princess? If I remember correctly, you were the one going on a date. Not me.”
“For fuck’s sake, Travis. This is just like the Anthony thing all over again.”
“Andrew,” he corrects me again.
I sigh. “Gah, whatever. The point is, you can do whatever you want, but the moment I go out with someone, you act like this. Make up your mind. You don’t want me, but you don’t want anyone else to have me either? That’s bullshit. I’m tired of your double standards. My heart isn’t disposable. It’s not the first time your words have hurt me like that, and now I’m making sure it’s the last.”
He looks at me, his expression blank. I take the opportunity to slip inside the car. I roll down the window and watch as he stands there with his hands in his pockets.
