Rowan smiles before moving closer and brushing his perfect, sensual lips against my mouth.
“That I couldn’t take my eyes off you from the moment you set foot in my office.”
“Oh yeah?” I ask naïvely.
“And when I first saw you at the club… I thought I was losing my mind.”
“What…”
“You don’t know, do you?”
“What are you talking about?”
“About how you are sexy, seductive, and that I can't think of anything but you in my bed since the day you came into my life.” My face feels hot, just like the rest of my body.
“You are everything I didn’t expect. You are a surprise. One you don’t know you want until it turns your life upside down.”
I wipe away a tear with my finger. “If you say things like that, you can hardly expect me to turn to stone.”
“You are someone who gets emotional, I get it, and who feels many things and all of them completely. I respect that and…” He sighs, then smiles. “The truth is, I like you that way. And I want you to feel how much I want you right now.”
I want to tell him that he can do with me what he wants and to the extent he thinks he can, but I don’t want to ruin this moment with one of my stupid outings.
“I don’t know what to say.”
“I thought we could stop talking for a while. What do you say?”
I say that I am excited, that I feel intoxicated, and that I have no control over my emotions, especially over my body. I want it. Absurdly. I want it so badly that I’m afraid it’s too good to be true.
I wipe another tear under Rowan’s concerned eyes.
“What is it?”
I shake my head slowly.
“If you want us to step back…” He starts to walk away, but I grab him by the T-shirt and pull him towards me.
“I don’t want to spoil it.”
“I thought chaos was your way of life.”
“It is, but not when it comes to the children. They are the most important thing to me. They always come first. I don’t want this to hurt them in any way.”
Rowan gives me a beautiful smile of understanding before taking me in his strong arms. He kisses me again, softly, as if he wants to savour every emotion right on my lips.
“The children are my priority too, Seth.”
“Really?”
“I made a commitment and I will keep it. You have my word.”
“Thank you,” I say, still hesitant.
“What else is wrong?”
“Could we… Could we take it easy?”
I can’t believe that crap came out of my mouth.
