The contrast between the chilly air and the heated water is relaxing and soothing as my fingers work through Mateo’s slightly wet hair. Exhaustion has taken over my body and mind, and it would take little to no effort to pass out right now.
But I can’t seem to pull myself away from him for long enough to exit the hot tub.
I’m still in disbelief about everything that just went down. The fact that Mateo actually let me fuck him is mind-boggling. We’ve had some really fucking great hot sex, but tonight takes the cake.
The amount of trust I know he had to put in me to allow that to happen makes my heart race. It makes my throat constrict with emotion I’ve tried to ignore since meeting him.
Mateo turns around so he’s facing me. “What’s got you so quiet,cariño?”
Looking back on everything that’s happened between us, from the very unfortunate meeting we had, to the snowstorm, my car breaking down, to tonight, I’d be lying if I didn’t admit that Mateo has notoriously always been very upfront about how he’s feeling.
He’s continuously been honest.
He’s continuously allowed himself to be vulnerable for the sake of being true to himself when it comes to his feelings for me.
And he’s continuously, especially tonight, put an enormous amount of trust in me when it comes to his past or his emotions.
So, even though my hands are shaky, and my mind is screaming at me not to, I answer him truthfully, because if he can put his trust in me with his dark and scary, then I can do the same.
Swallowing around the lump in my throat, I say honestly, “I’m thinking about how I was so completely wrong about you, and I’m realizing how happy I am to be wrong.”
The grin that pulls on his lips is flirty, but also cocky. It’s perfectly Mateo. “Is that so?”
I nod, rolling my eyes, a grin of my own forming. “Yes, you smug bastard.”
“So, what you’re saying is, you’re leaving here a fucking fiend for the way I make you feel?”
Mateo waggles his brows at me, and it’s not lost on me that he’s repeating the very threat he said to me the day of the snowstorm. It should irritate me, and previously, it probably would have.
But it doesn’t.
It’s endearing. As much as I hate to admit it, his cockiness is one of the reasons I undoubtedly fell for him. His confidence, and the way he’s always so sure of himself, when I rarely am. Admitting that, even to myself, is bizarre, but it’s the truth.
“You’re fucking ridiculous,” I say, shaking my head.
He leans in, lips pressing against mine. My body immediately relaxes at the feel of his tongue brushing along mine, my arms wrapping around his neck to hold him close. Being honest with myself, and with him, is a ton of bricks lifted from my shoulders. It’s a breath of fresh air.
I couldn’t even say how long we sit here in the hot tub, making out like teenagers, but by the time we break apart, both of our dicks are hard again and our chests are heaving. Neither of us makes any moves to take care of the raging erections, nor do we move to put any distance between us either.
This moment is the start of a new chapter.
A chapter I never in a million fucking years thought I’d see.
But it’s a chapter I now can’t imagine not starting.
Mateo pushes a stray hair off my forehead, his mint green eyes drinking me in. “So, what’s this mean for you and me,mi amor?”
I wince, feeling my cheeks heat. “Baby steps?” I offer with a lazy shrug.
“Fuck that,” he snorts. “I think this means I’m your boyfriend.”
It’s embarrassing how hard the organ in my chest thumps for that one word falling from his sexy as sin lips. “I don’t know aboutall that,” I tease.
Mateo’s head throws back onto his shoulder as he barks out a laugh. “Oh, fucking please,cariño. I’m your boyfriend now. Better get used to it.”
Pretending to get out of the hot tub, I mutter, “I take it all back. Every last word. I hate you.”
Somehow, like always, we end up with our arms wrapped around each other, letting our lips and tongues say everything we need to say. Our fingers and toes are shriveled up by the time we finally pull ourselves out of the hot tub, and foregoing clothes, we climb into bed together, and stay wrapped up the entire night.
