Tocatch a glimpse,
Ofthat blue existence.
I’velost my cool,
Lostall control.
Lostall my desire to play.
I’vegiven up,
I’vebeen taken down,
And Ijust want to stay …
Notquite there, not quite here,
Thedistance is stifling,
Whilebeing so near,
On theedge of a blue existence.
Butas long asI’m here,
Aslong asyou’re here,
I’dkeep from falling,
Keepmyself stalling,
Tocatch a glimpse,
Ofthat blue existence.
Isaw the nervous bobbing of his Adam’s apple as he straightened his neck. Hiseyes fixed on the lake, not daring to look my way, and the tightening in mychest could only be explained by the atmosphere thick with emotion.
“Whois she?” I asked, ignoring the quivering of my lips.
Heturned to me, the moon reflecting in the whites of his eyes. “It’s asong,KJ,” he said grinning. “But you bought it, right? It sounds real?”
Inarrowed my eyes, trying to take in the sight of him in the darkness, trying tosee if he was pulling my leg. “What I’m not buying is that it’snotreal.”
Heshrugged. “Do you think Gordon Lightfootreallyknew what it was like tosail on the Edmond Fitzgerald?”
Icocked my head. “What?”
“Orthat Michael Jackson wasreallyfighting for his life in a killerthriller?”
Mygroan shook my entire body. “You’re just refusing to admit that you have acrush on someone, even though you had no problem calling me earlier to tell meyou took a massive shit in the Porta Potty at work.”
Devinbroke out in a bubbly laugh, throwing his head back. “Oh my God, it was sofucking funny Kylie! You should’ve seen the look on Pop’s face when he went inthere and got a whiff—”
“Ireallydon’t need to hear the story again,” I said, shaking my head,unable to keep the giggles at bay. “What I’m saying is, I can handle it if youwant to spend your time with a, uh, girlfriend.”
Thatpart was a lie.
“KJ,”he said, his laughter quelling. He leaned toward me, the wavy ends of hisshaggy brown hair brushing lightly against the orange strands of mine. Hisbrown eyes melted into my blues and his intense stare pinned me down, leavingme incapable of turning away. “I swear, I don’t have a girlfriend.”
