Iwas going to have to have a chat with Shan about how he allowed Caspian to go around living life this goddamn oblivious. He’d been willing to die because he thought I didn’t want to have sex with him. To be fair, I hadn’t been forthcoming in my affections, but I’d been more affectionate with him than with anyone else. Ever.
Even if I hadn’t been all on board with fucking him, I wouldn’t have been able to kill him.
Idiot.
My hand on his hair tugged harshly and he looked at me with his pitch black eyes, eyelids hanging heavy. He was pliant as I moved him to lie on the bed on his back, where I had just been, but he was still only half present. My body was feeling a little weaker because of the magic drain, but he’d need a few more orgasms from me and I was happy to give them to him.
Lining myself up above his cock, I sank down onto it. He whined, his fingers digging into my hips with more force than he would usually use. I’d be covered in bruises later, and he’d no doubt apologize a thousand times. For now, he didn’t seem to realize how hard he was grabbing and I didn’t mind being roughed up a bit.
I leaned forward to kiss him and rode his cock, sliding up and down at a slow and steady pace he would soon grow tired of. He returned my kisses with tongue and teeth and lack of finesse. When I pulled back, I moved my lips to his neck and sucked temporary marks into his skin, and his hips pounded up into me.
“Maybe I should have told you before we did this, but we’re on camera right now,” I murmured in his ear, licking the pointed tip. His grip on my hips tightened. “Nolan might be watching.”
He grunted and the next thrust made me cry out from how deep it hit inside me. His knot was slick with my juices and grinding against my opening with every thrust, and I was tempted to try to take it inside of me. The only problem was that I knew the second I took a knot, there would be no going back to how I’d lived before: Alpha-free and independent.
Did I want to go back? Or did I want Caspian to cuddle with me in bed, Shan’s annoying ass taking care of the both of us?
The likelihood of a relationship between us working out was low, but I had to stop living in denial. I wanted it.
“You enjoy being watched, huh?” I asked.
I knew he did. When he’d eaten me out in the stairwell of my apartment building, I could have sworn he was more excited than he would’ve been if I’d invited him upstairs.
“I told him jerking off to the video feeds couldn’t be good for him, but he implied he’d be doing it anyway. Maybe he’s not watching right now, but he’ll probably take a peek at this recording.”
Caspian’s body shuddered beneath me, and I reached a finger down to press against my oversensitive clit. With how keyed up I was, I didn’t need much stimulation to get off. A few thrusts later and my thighs trembled from the effort of continuing to ride him. This time, Cas didn’t come with me but he twitched rapidly, visibly holding it back as he absorbed my energy.
He needed more.
I wished I’d been able to convince Nolan to give me more than one of them, because a little help would be nice right now. At this rate, I’d be drained for days. I would do it for him, but the runes on this cage certainly weren’t helping my magical energy recover any faster. Not to mention how my body had been growing weaker with time.
Although…
I pressed down hard against his knot, tensing at the unfamiliar, intense stretch. My body was built to take it, but that didn’t stop my brain from worrying about how much it might hurt. It had been so long since I’d revealed. Had my body resigned itself to never getting a knot, closing off that avenue of opportunity? Because I was mentally ready to do it. He wouldn’t mark me — I wouldn’t let him, and he wasn’t that far gone. The act of taking a knot would be enough to stop my body from fighting against me, though, because soon after a knot came a mark. In theory.
This may backfire when I didn’t let anyone mark me. I hated the idea of being owned like livestock by an Alpha. It would take me a while to warm up to being claimed, although if anything I owned Caspian more than he would ever own me.
Those were future Freya’s problems.
Right now, I wanted to help him, and trust him a bit more, and take his knot. Fuck the consequences.
“I’m going to try to take your knot,” I murmured, pressing my lips to his. The black depths of his eyes sparked with panic. “Don’t freak out. You’re a good boy and your knot is going to be amazing. I’m not doing it just to give you more energy. I want to.”
Maybe I wouldn’t have done it at this exact moment if he didn’t need so much energy, but he didn’t have to know that.
As if sensing the change in the direction of my thoughts, my body produced a gush of slick, mixing with the steady leaking of precum from his cock. Kissing him on the nose and then the lips, I pressed myself down.
For a second, it felt like I might tear myself apart, but when his hands wandered up to play with my nipples, every muscle relaxed. His knot slid into me as I took the widest part, my pussy locking him into place. We let out matching moans, my body collapsing down over his. “That was… surprisingly easy.”
“You were made for me.”
I glanced up at him with a smile, caressing the side of his face. “Good, you’re finally talking again.”
“It’s hard. I’m still borderline starving.”
He punctuated his words by pressing his hips up, making his pelvis grind against my clit. My hands bunched in the bedsheets as I met his grinding with my own. “How much more do you need?”
“More than I want to take from you… but not enough to kill you, I don’t think. I would ask to leave, but I don’t think I trust myself not to jump someone in the hall before getting back to Shan and Em.”
