"Okay.." I trailed off as he slouched in the chair, listening intently.
"My first question is.."
"Did you get me pregnant on purpose?" I blurted out, needing to know the answer to this since it'd been on my mind for a while.
"Huh?" He furrowed his eyebrows, obviously completely thrown off.
"Don't get mad, you said we weren't getting mad here." I expressed to him and he nodded.
"Na' I know, ma but-"
"Na.."
"I ain't do that shit on purpose, I really slipped up." He admitted and I nodded in relief.
"Good."
"But I'm not gon' lie and say I wun' tryn' do it on purpose before." He admitted, making me raise my eyebrows.
"Really? When?" I asked.
"Remember that night a couple months ago when I asked you if I could take the condom off?" He asked and I nodded.
"I was gon' put a baby in you.." He spoke seriously.
"..but you made me promise not to so I knew you wun' ready and I wun' gon' do you like that."
"You know I'd never break a promise."
Nodding my head. I took in the information as I formed my next question in my mind.
"Aight, next question, ma."
"Okay."
"When we broke up, that crazy girl that came here like a month ago..."
"Diamond." I said her name, making him sigh.
"Did you do anything with her in those 3 months after breaking up with me?" I asked as he looked down, thinking long and hard. While I mentally prayed he didn't, I knew anything was possible.
"Yeah." He spoke bluntly and I nodded, looking down at my hands. I fought hard to hold back my anger and tears. It was hard as hell but I was dedicated to keep this talking thing completely friendly.
We needed this.
"But listen to me, T."
"It wun' cause I really wanted to. If I'm being honest witchu."
"I was mad as shit and this was way before I knew you was still pregnant, you know?"
"I thought you had went and got an abortion so I was just tryn' move on.." He trailed off.
"I wun' never tryn' cuff the bitch, she just suck good dick so I let her do it again, ma."
"I wanted my mind off you and my dead kid." He spoke bluntly, triggering me.
"Don't say that." I shook my head. I didn't even want to think about the possibility of our son not being here. I was way too close to abortion and it still haunted me, I didn't need to hear that.
