“I said I wished to keep you. You are mine.”
Where was he going with this? I was fine with being his. I loved possessive guys. I loved the thought of being his. I was picking up what he was putting down. “And I said I’m good with it.”
“You do not understand.”
“Fuck, Zoltilvoxfyn. What is wrong?”
“You’remine. I don’t want you for a few cycles. I want you for forever. I will never surrender you. Not ever.”
My mouth fell open. I couldn’t find a single word to say.
“Kalvoxrencol warned me you wouldn’t understand. Humans do not mate the way we do. You can take multiple long-term partners throughout your life, but drakcol take but one permanent partner. You are my mate.”
If I had a heart, it would be pounding. “You want me for forever?”
“I have since the moment I saw you, even though I didn’t understand until later. You are mine, Caleb. I will have no other, and I will never desire anyone else. Ever. So when I say you are mine, this is what I mean.”
I wished with every fiber of my soul to kiss him, but the risk was great. If I focused hard enough, I could touch him for the barest moment, though I wouldn’t feel it, but if I exhausted myself, I would vanish for a few hours to days. If I did, Fyn wouldn’t take it well, especially with the talk of my disappearing for good.
I said with all the sincerity I possessed, “I am yours, Zoltilvoxfyn. Not for now. Not for a few cycles. I’m yours forever.”
He took a sharp inhale. “Caleb.”
“That means you’re mine, right? Like I don’t have to share you or anything? I can keep you?”
“I am yours alone.”
Part of me felt guilty for being so damn happy. Fyn could certainly do better than me. He was choosing to be with me when he could have someone better, someone who would age beside him. Still, I wasn’t going to force him away. I’d been alone for a very long time, and I never wanted to be lonely again. Itwas more than that, though. If I didn’t have Fyn in my life, there would be no point. Wandering wasn’t a lure for me anymore. He was all I needed; he was my smile; he was my heart; he was my reason for this half-existence.
“I lo—” I broke off. I wasn’t ready to say that yet, so I said, “I will be yours for as long as I exist, Sunshine.”
I watched his throat bob, wishing to press my lips against it. His deep green eyes met mine. “And I will be yours until my last breath, and even after.”
A star exploded in my chest. For the first time since I died, I truly felt something, not a shadow, not a bare whisper so distant that I questioned it happened. No. This was real. It was… Warmth. The heat spread from my chest to my fingers to the tip of my toes, filling my entire body. I tried to cling to the awareness, but it slipped away. I let it go, not caring. I didn’t need it. I didn’t need anything besides Fyn. He was my sun.
Chapter 26
Romance under the stars.
I brushed my fingers over his chest, trailing down his stomach to near his straining cock, then back up again. “Can I see you?”
“Permissions.”
Ah, yes. Drakcol needed to talk about everything first. That was fine as long as I got to see my Sunshine at the end. I slid my hand lower once again until it rested right below where I was pretty sure his belly button was. His breathing sped up and his tail thrashed.
“You can come as close as you want. You can touch me whenever you want. I want you, Fyn, and I want everything you have to give me. I will take it all.” He couldn’t truly touch me.There was basically nothing he could do to me, physically at least.
“Sex?” he asked, voice breaking.
“I want to watch you please yourself,” I said, voice husky and rough. Shit. I really did. Imagining him stroking himself off was enough to make me moan. “Do you have anything you need me to know or not to do?”
“No.”
I chuckled. “You’re not doing well with these permissions, my Sunshine. I think you're supposed to tell me what you like and need, and more importantly, what you don’t like.”
“I want to give you everything you desire.”
That was incredibly romantic, but not healthy. Relationships were a two-way street. “And I need you to be comfortable. What are things you don’t want me to do?”
