For all the good that came from those ten years together, the bad was so much more intense. Unrequited love and all. It definitely didn’t help my situation being in love with both herandPete, while being super attracted to Mark and Norm.
I’m not sure anyone would have been in total agreement with whatIalways wanted to happen, and I never wanted to risk friendships and the band to find out.
And now, staring into those black as night eyes, eyes that are searching while they openly show me her love, I’m still hesitating.
I don’t want us to be a product of crazy emotions or endorphins. If Leo and I are going to finally get physical, finally be everything we’ve secretly wanted to be to each other,andbring my relationship with Pete into it, then I want it to be because she’s ready for that and not because she’s zinging from playing music.
“Stop that.”
I frown. “Stop what?”
Leo fists my shirt tighter and pulls me down so we’re eye level. “Stop trying to talk yourself out of this.”
“Leo. Baby cakes.” I drop my forehead to hers with a sigh. “I just want you to be ready, I don’t want it to be forced. I have no expectations. I’m just so fucking happy to have you back in mylife and know that you’remine. I want more than anything for you to beours, but I don’t want you to do something you aren’t ready for.”
“Lucky?” Leo slides her hand up my neck and into my hair. “Have you ever known me to do something I wasn’t ready for?”
Pete snorts from next to me and I shoot him a side eye as I feel his hand slide up my back. “She’s got you there, man.”
“And you’re thinking with your dick.” I straighten up some so I can scowl at him.
Mainly because my comment was way out of line, he loves Leo as much as I do and he’s been just as concerned as me. Not to mention I shouldn’t be such a prick to him because Pete was contentnottelling Leo about our relationship until we were past the running stage. Which he hasn’t wanted to do since we got together. There hasn’t been one single day we’ve kept us a secret or one person we’ve kept our relationship from but since it was Leo, he made the concession so we could keep her even keeled and in our lives. Then I fucked it all up by being so excited, and happy, and horny after playing as a band again I couldn’t help but kiss him.
So no, I shouldn’t be snapping at Pete.
“Sorry,” I say sheepishly, sighing as Leo starts playing with my hair at the same time he slides his hand up the back of my neck and gives me a grounding squeeze. “I didn’t mean that.”
“I know,” Pete says, a smile dancing in his umber colored eyes. “But you should still answer the princess. She’s waiting.”
My gaze shifts back to Leo and she lifts a brow. “Have I ever done anything I didn’t want or wasn’t ready to do?”
“Well, no...” She has a good point. Leo never let anyone or anything dictate her actions before, if she’s doing something it’s because she wants to, bottom line. That’s exactly how we lost her for three years.Duh. “But I really don’t want you to regret this...to do this with me, withusand then decide it was wrong in some way.”
Leo pulls back from me and sighs, letting go of both of us because she still had a grip on Pete too, and I’m sure I’ve done it. I have somehow managed to talk the one woman who doesn’t care about my fucked up face, the one woman I love more than life itself, theonlywoman I’ve loved and wanted to be with me and my boyfriend, out of having sex with me.
Hell, one of my favorite and most intense fantasies is having a threesome with these two but apparently you give me a real, solid chance at it, and I’ll blow it.
I am such an idiot.
“After all these years...”
I lift my eyes just in time to see Leo grin as she pulls her shirt up over her head and drops it to the floor before grabbing the bottom of mine.
Shit.
Fuck. Shit.
Fucking hell.
No bra. Leo wasn’t wearing a bra and I had no idea. Usually I’m very in tune with that but I wasn’t tonight and my girl wasn’t wearing anything under that ratty tank top. Holy fuck, Leo has perfect tits. I haven’t seen them like this before, from the side or behind her hands a couple times, but not like this. Not in a way to see that Leonor has both nipples pierced with tiny bare bells through them.
Oh my god, I’m so happy right now.
“I only do what I want, when I want, with whom I want to do it.” Leo pulls my shirt off and throws it over my shoulder, her gaze immediately falling to my pecs. “Have I ever told you how much I like your chest hair?”
I laugh a little, my eyes still glued to her glorious tits, but when I feel her fingers moving up my stomach and intosaid chest hair I suck in a sharp breath. “I don’t think you’ve mentioned it.”
“Mmm, well I’ve always found it incredibly sexy.”
