Page 32 of His Fate
Sometimes I dream of us in what feels like a fairytale or a time long ago. It's like I'm seeing him off to war, watching him leave our house, crying and angry but so worried and scared that I'll never see him again.
Which is something I feel all the time. It's only been a few days, not even a whole week but I miss Kai more than I have ever missed anyone or anything in my entire life when he's not around. It's like I can barely function not knowing where he is, if he's really mine, if he'll come back to me.
Then I remind myself that's totally insane and I try to build my resolve, convince myself that these feelings are ridiculous and unhealthy and I need to stop him from coming around.
But the second I decide to do that I completely fall apart. I dissolve into tears, feel like my heart is being ripped from my chest and I can't do it. I've even gotten as far as typing up the text asking him to stop coming by work, my house, giving me rides but I'm usually crying so hard by the time I'm ready to hit send that I can't.
And the fact that Kady hit that nail right on the head is so fucking weird.
"That doesn't mean we're supposed to be together, Kady," I whisper, fiddling with the flathead in my hand. "Kai can do so much better than me."
"Posey, look at me."
And because I love Kady and she's a tad terrifying, I look up and meet those dark brown eyes.
"No man, beast, or anything in between that's worth a damn could do better than you. You are the best little shit I've ever had the privilege of helping raise and I can say that since you've been coming to my shop in one way or another since you were no taller than your daddy's rain boot." She narrows her eyes and parks her hands on her hips. "Speaking of your daddy, he would shit kittens if he heard you say something like that so you best believe me and never say it again."
A tear rolls down my cheek as I lift my hands in defeat. "Ok, ok. I'm done."
"And you'll stop all this nonsense about how you and Kai shouldn't pursue the spark between you?"
"What is it with you today? Did you all of the sudden become telepathic or some shit? It's like you took a stroll through my brain and read my secret thoughts."
Kady shrugs again and pushes off of the shelf. "I just know what true love looks like."
"I think it's a little soon to be throwing that around..." Except I've thrown it around plenty inside my head. I won't admit that to a soul but it's true and I feel stupid for it.
"True love and fate are funny things, Posey. They don't work on anyone's timeline but their own."
Then Kady beams a smile my way and leaves the room in a puff of flour dust.
What a strange fucking conversation.
I look down at the mess I've made and blow out a raspberry. Why the hell did I decide to clean and dismantle an espresso machine a half hour before we close?
Thankfully Ronny is out front and we're usually pretty dead just before the end of the day so I can devote my last few minutes to trying to put this thing back together. Or I'll just finish completely taking it apart and have Kady take the cost of a new one out of my next few checks.
Ugh.
With a frustrated grunt I get to my feet, brush my hands off on my jeans, and grab my phone.
KAI: Ride tonight?
I grin and clutch my stomach, those Mothra size butterflies immediately taking flight. Then I giggle when I picture Kai hunched over his phone trying to send out such a simple text.
Even with the biggest, newest iPhone, Kai still struggles with texting.
His fingers are a little too big and he thinks faster than he types so the first few texts he sent me were filled with autocorrect and typos that made it hard to decipher. And his accent is too thick for the talk to text feature so that was useless when we tried.
It was endearing and very cute to watch him scowl at his phone while he tried to slow down enough to type coherently and I laughed harder than I ever have while Kai tried talking into it. It was like the reverse version of Google translate and his messages were pure gibberish.
I loved it.
ME:I don't have one if that's what you're asking. Kady is meeting Jack in town for their date night and Ronny didn't drive in today because his dad needed the truck for deliveries.
KAI: Me?
ME: Are you asking me if I'd like to ride you, Kai?
