No more her, I think, and suddenly I see her face with perfect clarity, violet eyes bright with betrayal as I attacked her in the arena. But beneath the betrayal had been something worse—understanding. Forgiveness. A willingness to still reach for me even as I tried to destroy everything we could have been.
“When?” I ask, and feel the corruption surge with victory even as something in my soul begins to scream.
“Soon.” Alenya produces a key that shivers with power. “Very soon.”
The bond flares one last time, and now I recognize what it’s trying to tell me. This isn’t about freedom, it’s about fear. Fear of how deeplyshe’s worked her way into my heart. Fear of how right it feels when our magic dances together. Fear of belonging to something larger than my own carefully constructed walls.
I’ll forget the color of her eyes. I’ll forget everything about her.
I have to.
Because if I don’t, if I let myself remember exactly how her violet eyes sparkle when she laughs, how her shadows reach for my light like old friends coming home… I’ll never be able to do what needs to be done.
Even if it means destroying the best part of myself in the process.
After Alenya leaves, I sink to the floor of my cell, pressing my forehead against the cool stone. The key she left, my promise of freedom, burns in my palm like a brand.
Something shifts in the shadows near the ceiling, a movement too deliberate to be natural. I look up, expecting another trick of the corruption, another phantom to torment me.
Instead, I find myself staring at the tiniest wisp of shadow I’ve ever seen, barely larger than my hand. It bobs peacefully near a crack in the ancient stonework, seemingly unbothered by the containment wards that should be keeping it out.
“What—” I start, but the word catches in my throat as the tiny shadow drifts closer. There’s something different about this one, something pure and untainted. Starlight ripples through its form like captured moonbeams.
The little shadow does a lazy flip in the air before settling at eye level. If a shadow could look curious, this one definitely does.
“You shouldn’t be here,” I tell it, but I make no move to attack. My light magic stirs, but not aggressively. If anything, it seems… interested. “She’ll be looking for you.”
The shadow bobs in what might be agreement, then drifts even closer. My breath catches as it brushes against my hand. The touch feels like sunshine and laughter, nothing like the oily corruption trying to twist my power.
“Stop it,” I whisper, but the shadow only repeats the gesture, more deliberately this time. Memories flash through my mind. Kaia’s smile, her shadows dancing with my light, the way everything had felt right before fear poisoned it all.
The wisp expands slightly, showing me a glimpse of something—six points of light arranged in a perfect pattern, power flowing between them like rivers of starfire. At the center, a familiar violet glow pulses with possibility.
“I can’t,” I tell the shadow, closing my eyes against the vision that feels too much like hope. “I won’t be bound. Not even for her. Not even if—”
But the shadow just bobs serenely, completely unfazed by my denial. It shows me another image. My light magic twining with her shadows, creating something neither dark nor bright but somehow both. Something beautiful.
Something free.
“Please,” I breathe, not sure if I’m asking it to stop or show me more. “I can’t… I have to…”
The tiny shadow settles on my shoulder, its starlit form pulsing gently. For just a moment, I let myself feel it. The echo of what could be, if I were brave enough to choose connection over fear.
Then I remember Alenya’s key, Alekir’s promise of freedom, and I force myself to stand. The tiny shadow drifts back, watching me with what feels like gentle understanding.
“Go back to her,” I say roughly. “Tell her…” My voice breaks, shattering on the truth I can’t escape. “Tell her I remember the color of her eyes.”
The shadow does another lazy flip before floating back toward the crack in the wall. Just before it disappears, it shows me one last image—a future where light and shadow dance together, unbound yet perfectly aligned.
I clutch the key tighter, letting its cold metal ground me against the vision’s warmth.
I have to forget that future. Have to forget her eyes.
Have to forget how much I want everything that tiny, impossible shadow just showed me.
Chapter 8
Torric