Page 24 of Forgive Me, Father
I held my hand out, and Noah shook on our agreement.“We have a deal; welcome to the family.”
“The honor is ours,” her father stated.He was so eager to please, and maybe that was what my grandfather had meant about new blood.They were passionate about the Dons and intent on a solid arrangement.
“Someone will come see you soon about distribution prospects.Now, if you would excuse me.I still have a lot to do before tonight, and there are refreshments in the foyer.You will be called when it’s time,” I said, and he nodded, stood up, and walked out with his brother and bodyguard.
I could tell none of them had ever dreamed of this day.I wanted to go to Camilla, to see if she was okay, but Nico had already motioned earlier when he’d made a round that she wasn’t.
I was her head.She had to listen to me; what I wanted was all that mattered.It was how it was, and I wasn’t going to grow soft on her.Even if she were everything I’d ever ached for.If she submitted to me, she would have everything her heart desires.
I met her mother earlier.She’d literally fucked me with her eyes, in front of her husband.But I could see where Camilla had gotten her beauty from.It definitely wasn’t her father.
Her sister looked like their father.
I’d let Camilla deal with what she was going through.She would pull herself together.I knew what was expected of me tonight, and I was going to deliver.I was going to seal this deal tonight.
TEN
THE LITTLE RUNAWAY
I was alonethe entire day.The doctor came.He told me I could request someone to be here with us.I said no.
He did his inspection and gave me a wink.I hated that.So creepy.
They brought in the food, but I barely touched it, picking at it slowly.I wasn’t in the mood for tonight, and the tears kept flowing, unstoppable.I’d never felt this alone in my entire life.
Tonight was going to be horrible.He was big, gigantic.I’d felt it when he was getting off on strangling me.Whatever was happening made him hard, and he’d pressed his shaft right into me.The worst part was that my body had loved every second of it because I was drowning between my legs when I got to my room.My panties were soaking wet, and it wasn’t because I’d peed myself.I wish I had peed myself.
This feeling, this chaotic mix of fear and excitement, was unlike anything I’d ever known.It was a storm inside me, clashing violently, twisting my insides in a way that almost made me want to vomit.
Then, a knock at the door.Nico stepped in, his eyes sweeping over me.I hadn’t even bothered with my robe yet, and his stare lingered on it, draped over the chair, as if it held the weight of everything that was about to happen.
“Camilla, don’t do this, please.”
“Do what?”
“Defy him.I begged you earlier, just do as you are told and your life will be easier.He is a good man; he just doesn’t know how to handle his shit sometimes.”
“No fucking kidding.I still have his fingerprints around my fucking neck, Nico.”
“Just put on the fucking robe.”He threw something on the bed.“And make sure you get a good amount of lube on that cunt of yours.”
Heat surged up my cheeks and burned my ears as I watched Nico turn on his heel and walk out the door.It stung, but there was something twistedly deliberate about it.He was being cruel, detached.I couldn’t help but think that, in his own messed-up way, he was trying to prepare me for what was coming.At least, I hoped that was the case.
My gaze went to the white and black bottle that was on my bed.I grabbed it.It was lube.Silicone-based.That was against the rules.Was Alfonso fucking insane?If they discovered I had lube on me, I closed my eyes.But feared if I didn’t, he would tear me open tonight, and I would be screaming, just not his name.I’d never been this scared either.
I picked up the lube.It felt like it was the only way I was going to get through tonight.Fuck everyone.
I took off my jersey and pulled off my shirt.I took off my bra and then started working off my pants and underwear.I only had my socks on, but nobody fucks with socks on, so I pulled them off too.My wedding pedicure still looked beautiful.At least my toes looked stunning.
I grabbed the bottle off the bed where Nico had thrown it, twisted the cap open, and squirted a good amount onto my hands.It was cold, and I just slapped it on my pussy.
I sucked in breath since it was freezing, but my fingers started working the lubricant along my length and in-between my folds.I found my clit, started working the lube in good, and my eyes closed as it felt euphoric.I’d dreamed about tonight so many times.Just to get it over with and then I could have explored Philip’s body just the way I’d wanted to.
Now that would never be my reality, and I doubted that whatever I’d felt for Alfonso would ever return.
I was like a flower; I blossomed with gentle and died with rough.Something I doubt my new husband would ever grasp.
A moan left my lips as my finger kept circling my clit.I knew I should stop.Now wasn’t the time to come.I couldn’t, but I wanted to come so badly.I wanted to come hard and tonight wouldn’t happen either.
