Yes, it may have been sad that I was trying to get the girl to take her statement back, but Lexus mama knew she raised a fucked up individual. She cost someone to lose their child. It was only going to a matter of time before someone took her life anyway. I don’t regret that my brother had to be the one to do it. Sometimes things don’t work out like they should. Perc should’ve been put the hoe in her place, but I blamed my mama for stopping Perc majority of the time.
I was just getting settled in at my new place when Blessyn called my phone and told me to come and pick her up because her water broke. Nothing scared me on earth, but something shook me when she told me her water broke. All I wanted was kids that I could spoil and pass down generational wealth to. It was finally my time to become a father and I was running around my damn house with one shoe on and the other one in my hand. This was out of character for me. I was used to being in control of everything around me.
I turned my flashers on and rushed to Blessyn in fear that her ass was going to have the baby without me. When I got there, she was waiting outside for me. She wasn’t panicking like me. Her demeanor was calm which made me get my shit together.
“Are you going in the hospital with one shoe on?” Blessyn asked as I helped her in the car.
“Fuck! I left my other shoe. I thought I had that bitch in my hand.”
“Are you okay? It’s just a damn baby, Lucky. You worked up like you got to go lay on the table or some shit. I’m the one that got to do all the work.”
“I know! I know! It’s just this a nigga first time going through this. My bad, where your bag?”
She pointed towards the steps, and I took off in a jog to grab it as she laughed. I threw the bag in the car as Blessyn gripped the dashboard. Blessyn grunted and took a few deep breaths.
“Don’t worry about the seatbelt just come on, please.” She said between clenched teeth.
“Why your mama not here with you? I thought she told me she was going to be here.”
“She has been here, but she has a life too. I was fine when she left, and I went to shower and my water broke.”
I didn’t say anything else as I dashed to the hospital. Blessyn was doing so good every time she got a contraction. She would occasionally ask for my hand for support as she went through the contraction. A half hour later, I was pulling up to the hospital. I got her registered while she changed and got hooked up to the machines. A smile came over my face when I heard my son’s heartbeat.
“What can I do to make her comfortable?” I asked the nurse.
“There’s nothing you can do right now but rub her back, give her ice and let her curse you out without feeling some type of way. I’ll be back in a few minutes to check her and if she wants some medicine, I’ll give her some.”
“Lucky call my mama and sister. I don’t want you in here.”
I waited until the nurse walked out the door before, I approached the bed. “Fuck you say?”
“I don’t want you in here.”
“Blessyn shut the fuck up before you piss me off. You ‘bout to birth my muthafuckin’ son and I’mma stand my ass right the fuck here until he comes out healthy. Once he good, I’ll leave your ass in here. Until don’t say shit to me.”
The nurse came to check her, and she was about four centimeters dilated. I took that time to call her mama and sister. Since she was laboring slow, I waited for her sister and mama to get there before putting a little space between us. I don’t knowwhat the fuck Blessyn took me for, but she had me fucked up on so many levels. She took me for a pussy because I loved her but when it came to my child, I’ll kill her ass.
I left and went to the local Wal-Mart to grab a pair of socks and slides since I was out here with one shoe on. Blessyn had dilated to seven centimeters when I got back and was getting fed ice by her sister while her mama wiped her face with a washcloth. She hadn’t noticed that I was back in the room yet.
“My nephew about to be here so all the beefing shit needs to end before she births him. I’m only telling you what I told her already but she’s in too much pain to argue with you so huh.” Merci pushed the ice in my hand. “Get this ice and she’ll let you know when she wants it. I’m waiting on call from Perc and I want to be available.”
Sixteen fucking hours later and my son was placed over the blue drape that covered up Blessyn exposed guts. She couldn’t push him out and had to get a c-section. He was everything as he hollered with his eyes closed shut. Blessyn laid on the table crying tears of joy. This was a dream come true for a nigga. My first-born son was born healthy with all his fingers and toes. I snipped his cord and waited for them to weigh him and wrap him in a blanket and gave him to me. Time stopped and the only thing I could feel was my heart about to beat out of my chest. He was really mine and looked every spit of me that it was scary.
“Let me see him.” I took him over to Blessyn and she cried harder. “He’s so cute. Does he look good? He’s not missing anything is he?” She ratted off questions.
“He’s perfectly fine.”
While they finished sewing her up, they took the baby to the nursery as I followed. Merci, her mama and my niece were waiting patiently to see the baby. Through the glass you could see him hollering as the nurse touched him. He still hadn’t opened his eyes yet, but I was just glad that he was fine and so was Blessyn. It seemed like once the baby got pulled out her she changed and wasn’t all down a nigga throat. That reminded me never to get her ass pregnant again.
“What y’all gone name him?” Merci asked.
“I don’t know. Gotta ask your sister. It’s a touchy subject and all.”
“Now that she’s not pregnant she’ll want you back.”
“Nah, I’m good. The papers are signed and I ain’t doing no more fuckin’ begging. We just gon’ be here for lil’ man now.”
It was sad to say that I was married and divorced so quickly. She got exactly what she wanted, and it was time for me to move on and focus on getting my brother out so he could be with his family. When she needed me, she knew how to call. There was plenty money that I had left in the safe for her. She was forever good because she had my son, but I couldn’t live with her, and she couldn’t forgive me for what I did. I dealt with it every time I had to swallow them pills just to make it through the day. I didn’t need her ass adding to it.
