“Let’s start with hands on heart,” Niam said, placing his hand over my heart. I was getting giddy just by that small touch. I placed my own hand over his heart and waited for something to happen. Nothing changed. He looked disappointed. “Maybe skin to skin,” he said, waiting for my permission before he snuck his hand under my shirt. I nodded, stifling a groan as his hand trailed inside of my shirt. Why was that so fucking hot? “Um, Xarius?” I realized I’d closed my eyes in pure bliss.
“Right.” I cleared my throat and let my own hand caress his stomach, touching him slowly because I wanted to savor the feel of him under my hand. He shivered at my touch, likely just as affected as I was.
Our breathing was affected as we touched each other’s chests, our eyes locked together. Nothing happened other than the pure need inside of me to kiss him. But before I could ask him if that was okay, his own lips crashed down on mine and he let out a whimper of need.
Chapter 13
Niam
I had to have him.
Xarius had teased me with his touch, letting me believe he was some kind of succubus as he made my body come alive. His eyes were so dark and hungry for me that I hadn’t been able to stop myself. Now I whimpered against his soft lips, never wanting to part from him ever again. I silently begged this wouldn’t be enough to bind us, wanting the excuse of doing more without having to admit just how badly I wanted to feel him inside of me.
A moan escaped him and I felt my legs weaken at the sound. Was there a sexier man alive? His tongue caressed my lips then, begging for entrance and I let him in, opening eagerly as we moaned together.
Was that…? I whimpered again, feeling my already hard dick leak inside my jeans. He had a fucking piercing on his tongue. I was gone for. My hand that had held his chest moved around his waist as my other hand held his neck. He would have to pry me off of him.
He held me around my waist and his other hand rested on my ass, squeezing as he rubbed his hard cock against my stomach. It wouldn’t take much more. I felt my spine tingle with pleasure and I pushed my dick against his leg, not caring that I was basically humping him. He swallowed all my sounds, taking them as his own, before he let out a long groan. I followed and whispered his name against his lips as I came in my pants.
We stood there, panting for breath, holding on to one another, staring into each other’s eyes as reality settled over us. We truly were soulmatches. This chemistry wasn’t normal. It was intoxicating, but I didn’t care. I was happy to experience this with Xarius. Happy knowing that no one would bring him the same kind of pleasure.Knowing he was fully mine was a heady feeling and I reveled in it as the pleasure faded away.
Xarius had been my first kiss. And the first time I shared an orgasm with anyone. I wanted him to be my first for everything. I couldn’t help smiling since I knew deep in my heart that he would be.And that I would be his.
“That was,” he started.
“Perfect,” I finished, hoping he agreed.
“Life changing,” he said, smiling at me, then placed a soft kiss on my lips and hugged me against him. I let myself relax, feeling safe and sated.
“But it wasn’t enough,” I said, although I wasn’t disappointed at all.
With fake despair, he said, “oh, no, we have to get naked? The horror!” I giggled, loving that things weren’t awkward between us after the kiss and the um,orgasms. “And we should start now? Horrible!” he exclaimed and pulled me towards the parking lot. We laughed together as I let him lead me back. We both needed to clean up and whatever else we would have to do to bind ourselves wouldn’t be done in the forest.
It was like the kiss had done something. It wasn’t enough to bind us, but our connection had opened up. I felt like I’d always known him. I trusted him. Cared for him. Soulmatches or not, we were bound together now, and I loved it.
Xarius left me to clean myself up, knowing I needed to do this bit alone, and I appreciated that. I quickly cleaned off in my van with wet wipes and pulled on some fresh pants. I didn’t have time to shower, and I preferred to do it at night anyway so the wet wipes would have to do for now. I went over to his van and knocked, knowing we still had to discuss when we would try binding ourselves again.Not that I was eager or anything.
He opened the door wearing only boxers. I swallowed, ready to begin the rest of the binding right away. “Come in,” he said, looking around, likely for some pants. I got inside and closed the door behind me. His van was cozy inside, like a tiny home. I loved how hard he’d worked on making it a mobile home, likely thinking the same as I did. I’d just wanted a roof over my head and then I would make it cozier.
“How long have you had the van for?” I asked, looking up at my fairy lights that still hung on his ceiling. I should’ve asked for them back, along with all my clothes. Jerry had brought me another bagyesterday with some from Magda that she’d figured I would like. I hadn’t told him about Xarius taking my clothes and books, not wanting to put him into a bad light, figuring I would need to come up with a story about them being stolen. I was glad I didn’t have to do that now.
“I bought it four years ago,” he replied, sitting down on his mattress next to me. “I slept on the couch at a friend’s place until I could pay for it.”
“I got mine for free,” I said. “But mine doesn’t drive so it’s strictly a home.”
“Well, now mine is yours. I already got your things in here, plus I had all this space over here saved just for you.” He opened a chest, and I saw the rest of my stuff packed away nicely in there.
“That’s why you took it? You want us to share?” I asked, feeling warm inside. We hardly knew one another, but we were fated to be together, and I didn’t care about anything else other than being with him. Like I’d told myself a few days ago, I was choosing me now, and choosing me meant also choosing Xarius.
I was totally fine with that.
Chapter 14
Xarius
Niam needed to tell Jerry where he was going so he wouldn’t worry. While he was inside the station, I sat and waited in my van. We would drive somewhere for the night and try the ritual. I was getting less patient by the minute, wanting to bind him to me for eternity. Making him mine fully. The kiss we’d shared had been the best moment of my life. Nothing could compare to the way Niam made me feel, and I was greedy for more of it. More of him.
Thedoor opened and I blinked at Niam as he sat next to me. I had been so far gone in my head, thinking of ideas for us to try, really,reallyfun ideas, that I hadn’t even seen him approach.
