Page 7 of Brian and Mina's Holiday Hits
I input the code on the bracelet, switch to “disarm”, and the silver metal cuff unlocks and falls from my wrist to clank loudly on the concrete floor.
Great, now I just have the whole day to wait. There’s no way I can risk leaving the house before dark. Too many people could see me and too many would try to stop me. And I’m not yet prepared to shoot them for their misguided life goals.
I go to where I know Brian keeps a stash of cash. I take three rolls, which comes out to a total of $30,000 in hundred dollar bills. It may be excessive, but I don’t know what’s out there. I doubt I could ever bribe a man as rich as Matsumoto, and I plan to kill him anyway, but I just feel better with a lot of money. I don’t know how long his game is. I don’t know what supplies I might need. And there might be some low level lackey Icanbribe with this kind of money.
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Escapingthe house is the most anti-climactic thing I’ve ever done. I probably could have escaped a long time ago. The thing was, I didn’t want to. Once Brian brought me back from Japan, all I wanted was to be with him. I didn’t care about the rest of the world or what was beyond the walls of the Pleasure House. I only cared that he was with me.
Once everyone’s asleep, I change into all black, grab the keys, money, and bag of weapons, and slip out of the house. The wall alarm is armed, but… I know that code too.
When I reach the garage with all the extra cars in it, I push the button on the key fob. The nondescript muted gold sedan’s headlights flash a couple of times along with a little beep. Brian once told me this car blends better than black. With black, he says you always look like you’re with the government, and it makes people uncomfortable and more on guard—kind of like when you’re driving down the road and a random police car is behind you.
I happen to know Brian also has this car in black, so I can only assume that sometimes he wants people to think he’s with the government. It’s an odd intimidation tactic, but Brian isn’t just about the torture and blind rage. He’s a strategist. Thepeople at the house only see Brian for the destruction he causes. They don’t appreciate all the planning before the demolition.
I stop for the night at a small motel and sleep.
I don’t dream.
When I wake, it’s like I closed my eyes for a split second, open them, and it’s morning. I hate those nights. I’d almost prefer disturbing dreams, then at least I feel like I actually slept instead of simply watching an abrupt scene change in a movie.
Half an hour later I’ve showered, dressed, had a quick drive-thru breakfast—while navigating traffic—and made it to the row of boutique stores at the address I was given.
I’m browsing the first of the boutique stores, looking for the blue egg and realizing I made a huge rookie mistake. Maybe all-black would be appropriate for the actual confrontation with Matsumoto, but wandering around everywhere in it… just looks a little… off.
I was at least smart enough to separate a few of the hundreds from one of the rolls of cash. The only thing that would look worse than skulking around a high-end boutique dressed like an assassin while appearing to be casing the place, would be to also pull out a giant roll of bills. I’m not the most subtle of Queen Pins, here.
Given my wardrobe situation and the realization that I don’t know how many stupid clues this motherfucker has or how much he plans to drag out this torment. It might be wise to have other clothes.
I don’t know why I didn’t think of this back at the house, but I was too focused on getting out, saving Brian, and killing Matsumoto. And I’m not sure what it says about me that my thoughts have turned more to killing Matsumoto than the former. I love Brian, but there’s a big part of me that believes he can take care of himself. Or maybe I just don’t want to believe he’s truly human and breakable like me. I want to believenothing else can ever harm him, and nothing is strong enough to take him down.
He’s gotten this far without me. Surely this isn’t the only sticky situation he’s been in. So right now my biggest fear isn’t that Brian will die, but that he’ll free himself and kill Matsumoto before I can do it.
This sounds insane even in my own brain. It wasn’t that long ago that I was the damsel in distress. I was the captive. I was the one at the mercy of someone else hoping for a rescue I somehow knew wasn’t coming, and then it did. I haven’t been the same since that moment.
When we got back to the house and I was settled, Brian went to punish the girl who caused me to be taken. And I didn’t care. I didn’t care about her screams. I didn’t care about her pain. I didn’t care because something in my emotions switched off, and something else switched on. It’s like my body, mind, and soul, shifted to a backup generator. The pain and fear got muted and the anger got turned up to eleven. But with the muting of the pain and fear came muting of other emotions—including good ones.
The things that could touch me before, suddenly couldn’t. The things I used to feel, I no longer did. I’m still wading through this fog of anger and desire for vengeance, but the other feelings, they don’t work quite right. I think I know what Brian meant when he said he wasn’t sure if he could feel a real normal feeling or if he could love. I’m not sure what this means for me, for him, for us. I’m afraid if I lose the better parts of me, it will spell doom for both of us.
Even so, a part of me is grateful for this muted place inside me, this simmering rage, this thing that means I’m not scared to follow this trail of breadcrumbs to the man who wants to recapture me and hurt me. Because I plan to hurt him. He thinks he has the upper hand because I’m scared. But I’m not scared.I don’t know if that’s stupid or dangerous but I’m not scared of him.
The only thing I fear is that I could lose Brian. As long as that doesn’t happen, I’ll be okay. I don’t know if I’ll ever fix whatever broke inside me. But somehow, I’ll be okay. Eventually.
I shake myself out of the memories and grab some casual clothes in my size… some jeans and T-shirts and a lightweight sweater because it’s pretty breezy out. When the first things I try on fit, I leave them on, and go out to the front with the rest.
If there’s an egg in this store, some random child has likely already wandered off with it. I try not to let that thought drag me down as I put the pile of clothes on the counter. I rip the tags off what I’m wearing and hand them to the sales girl. She gives me that look that Julia Roberts got in Pretty Woman the first time she tried to shop, but she rings it all up and puts it in a bag anyway.
“$488.62,” she says, snidely like she thinks I can’t afford it and will have to put things back since I didn’t bother to look at price tags. I’m on an Easter hunt, not a bargain hunt. I mean yeah it’s not cheap, but it’s not Dior, either. This lady needs to get over herself.
I pull out five hundred dollar bills from the black pants I carried to the counter. Now she looks at me like she suspects I’m a drug dealer, but she takes my tainted money and bags everything up for me without comment.
She doesn’t even tell me to have a nice day.
I search the next three shops on this row. No blue egg. Next I come to a bakery. I could use a donut and coffee. I really am starting to worry something has happened to this egg I’m supposed to be looking for. Or maybe Matsumoto has sent me on a wild goose chase so he can get the jump on me like the last time I wandered free from my gilded cage.
This thought gives me pause. I drop off the bag of clothes at Brian’s car, slip a clip-on holster onto the inside of my jeans, and conceal a .380 handgun. I’m not sure if this caliber would drop a full grown man or his thugs, but it’s what I can easily conceal and it doesn’t have too much kick. A .22 barely kicks at all when it fires, but at too much distance it carries too much ricochet risk. I’ve paid attention as Brian has given me these little nuggets of weaponry wisdom.
