Page 139 of The Legend
“Spill thebeans.” Alley pushed cookies my direction.
Staringdown at the cookies, I burst into tears. It must have been all that pent upemotion but it was like a fucking flood gate opened. We had a dozen cookiesgone before I was finally able to speak.
“Sex justhasn’t been the same. We’ve only done it twice and both times it wasn’t us. Itfelt like both of us were trying too hard and then when it was over, I feltguilty like I hadn’t given it everything I had. I even faked an orgasm so hewouldn’t feel like he couldn’t satisfy me! Who does that?”
“I havebefore.” Rosa raised her hand coming into the room.
Alley gaveher a funny look and then turned back to me. Rosa sat next to us and opened abeer she pulled from her bra.
We bothgave her a funny look after that. She shrugged. “In my country it’s fiveo’clock.”
“You’refrom America.” I said to her. “You know that right?”
“Nocomprender?” Rosa replied with gauging our reactions.
“Sway,” Alleygave me a confused expression focusing on the situation at hand.My sex life.“Not every time is mind-blowing.”
“I knowthat. But it’s never been like this for us.”
“You dorealize that he nearly died earlier this year. Maybe his gear isn’t working properly.”
“Alley!”I shovedagainst her shoulder as she laughed and Emma walked into the kitchen and satnext to Rosa eyeing her beer and then us. She too ate what was left of thecookies. “His gear works just fine.”
“Yuck.Don’t take about my brother’s gear.” Emma gagged spitting her cookie out.“Let’s talk about prom. Can I take Arie andLextoNew York next week?”
“No.”Alley answered with no reservations.
“Why wouldArie go to prom? She already got her GED.”
“Everygirl needs to go prom.”
“Sway,”Alley turned to me again. “Have you tried changing it up, maybe getting alittle freaky or something?”
“Oh mygod,” Emma shivered and gave us this disgusted snort, “stop talking aboutthis!”
“Hey,” Ireached over the counter and smacked the back of Emma’s head. “I’m having ameltdown today, be supportive or leave.”
Emma leftbut Rosa and Alley were all ears.
“What doyou mean by freaky?” My eyes dropped to my hands avoiding eye contact.
Alley wenton to explain that Spencer andherhad watched porn atone time. So she gave me a few DVD’s and Rosa handed me an erotica book. I’dread those before and skimmed through the one she had given me only to quicklyfind that I had never read something like that before. It was like bondage andwhips and chains and shit I had never considered.Ever.But needless to say, I was intrigued by it and that scared the shit out of mebut then some of it made me blush at the thought. Frankly, the idea of some ofthat stuff resembled something out of a horror movie.
I wasn’tsure how to react to it but I knew that Jameson wouldn’t be home until laterthat night so I thought that I could get some ideas before he came home.
Aftermaking sure the kids weren’t home, I inserted the DVD into the player and thensat in the middle of our bed, watching.
Fiveminutes into it, I was regretting my decision.
As I satthere, dressed my drive-by-clothes which consisted of a black hoodie, with thehood over my head, strings drew tight, and black sweatpants. I was sweating.
Viewingthe movie through the small opening in my hood, my reaction was both denial anddisagreement that I was actually watching it.
And then Istarted to sweat. Like really sweating and my breathing was increasing. Andthen my crankcase started to have a reaction I wasn’t expecting.
I knewexactly what was happening. My crankcase was thinking some align boring wasabout to happen based solely on what I was seeing. It was like the time Jamesonand I had heard my neighbors in college having sex.
Holyshit, I’m a porn freak. Andthere was no argument from my head.
