And then my mouth goes to one of my favorite places on Vale that I ignored the first time, because I wasn’t going to be able to control myself. I eat him out like he’s my first meal in weeks. Like his ass is that fucking orzo. The only reason I don’t spend all night like this is because I catch him whimpering,“More.”
“I got you, baby. Don’t worry.”
I turn him onto his back, lubed-up fingers slowly and one at a time going inside him. I take my cues from him, listening to his breaths and getting small nods, starting at a calm pace like always. But this time’s different. This time isn’t just fingering him until he sees God and his legs are shaking. It’s making sure he’s ready for more.
Still, though, I’m going to give him all the maneuversI’velearned.The ones that make his eyes roll back and get me some angelic whines. Nothing has yet to beat the sight of my fingers prepping his hole and watching him lose himself because of me. How he gets more and more needy.
“I’m ready,” he says, his voice breathy.
Never mind. I think I’m about to find another sight that’s going to be my all-time favorite. But— “I … I don’t want to be bad at this,” I admit, a wave of nerves waiting until this very moment to hit me. “I don’t want it to be bad for you.”
“It won’t be. You— There’s no way you could be. Just make sure to use more lube than you think you need. You’re not small.”
“Oh yeah?”My head perks up and I know the cocky grin I’ve got on my face has him regretting saying those words and hyping me up.
“Don’t pretend like that’s brand-new information. Like no one’s ever told you or that you aren’t putting a lot of trust and faith into something or someone every time you put on shorts. My jaw’s never been stronger.”
“Do I need to stretch you out more?”
“No, I … I’ll be fine. I promise. I don’t want to wait anymore.”
“Well, if it feels like it’s too much. Too big, even, just tell me, and—”
A pillow hits me in the face as Vale says, “I’m regretting telling you this.”
I laugh, holding his arm and the pillow down, kissing his cheek, down to his lips. “I’m being serious, though. I promise I am. I want to make you feel good.”
“You will. You always do.”
I settle between Vale’s legs as he puts that pillow underneath him, and I take those legs, placing them on my shoulders. And, true to every single hypothetical about this moment I’ve ever thought, Vale does indeed lookso goodwith his legs on my shoulders. Seeing that hole stretch around me, feeling it let me in, there’s no doubt he officially checks off everything on that list and then some.
“Holy— Fuck, Vale. Baby.”
“Gabi.”
He is the sun.Thisis what it is to be in the sun. This softness, warmth, tightness. It’s like discovering the feeling of sunlight hitting my skin for the first time. Hearing him, looking at him, kissing him, all the while being inside him. Looking down andseeing the two of us connected, looking at all of him, at us, and being so certain that this is the sight that will never be beat.
This is knowing with my whole heart and soul that what I feel for Vale is good and right and love and wholeness.
A part of me was scared for this exact moment. To give and be given so much. Knowing that there’s no way I’m going to be able to go back afterward. To pretend. To walk back into that cave with my hands held out, asking to be chained back up.
Every stroke gets more and more intense. Deeper. Every breath gets heavier and heavier. Everyyesandright thereandGabihe lets out. Everybabythat comes out of my mouth and “I love you” I barely hold in as we lock eyes and I get lost in those beautiful brown universes. Every creak of this fucking wooden bed that’s telling the whole river what we’re up to is something worth fighting for. Hearing Vale struggle for words, smiling as he tells me he’s close as my hand strokes him and watching him finally lose himself entirely has me coming right behind him, inside him.
I fall on top of him, chasing that orgasmic bliss like a high that keeps going as I slowly keep rocking into him and he gently scratches my back while even more gently kissing any part of my head and face his lips can reach. My arms go around his back and I hold him, breathing hard into his neck.
He’s got all of me now.
And it’s perfect.
Being in this room, away from the rest of the world, makes me feel like I could be brave.Hemakes me feel like I could be brave.
“You really don’t have to keep carrying me over your shoulder like this,” Vale says as I, as quietly as possible, take us outside tothe balcony, at nearly three in the morning, each of us wearing one of the extra pairs of swim briefs Pérez bought. “As much as I like looking at your butt.”
“You should have to see how much you scratched up my back tonight.”
“Well that’s what you get for the, what, at least three hickeys on my neck. You mark me up, I mark you up. It’s only fair.”
“I— Sure. Can’t argue with that. But don’t act like your legs aren’t a little wobbly,” I tell him as I carefully set him on his feet. I check the hot tub’s water temperature (nearly there), loving the way Vale massages my back as I get it ready for us. “We’ll let the hot tub help relax your muscles. And if that doesn’t work, guess I’llhaveto keep carrying you the whole weekend.”
