He leans in, kissing me slowly, sweetly; the way a man kisses his lover, not his toy. I need to stop this right here. Right now. But instead, I find myself falling back into the lounge and dragging him with me. This is passion and want. It’s everything women fantasize about, but too often neverfeel.
He’s ruining me. Little by little. Touch by touch. And as much as I’d love to hate him for it, I can’t. I smile as Elijah’s hand glides up my thigh, higher and higher, because I know what he’s about to find—my own little gift for him. He smiles against my lips when his finger grazes my bare pussy. Groaning, he buries his face in the crook of my neck, sucking in an uneven breath. God, how I love to feel that I’m bringing this man to the brink ofbreaking.
“James.” A man’s voice booms across the poolside, and Elijah slowly pulls his hand away and sitsup.
I subtly close my legs as two shadowy figures cross the pool deck. “Secluding yourself from the rest of the party, I see,” the man says, stepping into the soft light that streams from thehouse.
I narrow my gaze to the woman at his side. Her dark hair is swept back in a French twist, and her blood-red lips lay flat across her face. It’s the same woman from the rooftop, and she’s glaring at me like I’m her arch nemesis. Her fiery gaze swings to Elijah when he stands to shake hands with the man. I follow suit and push to myfeet.
“Nathan,” Elijahsays.
The man laughs. “It’s not typical to see him bring a woman to these events.” He holds out his hand to me. “I’m Nathan, and this is my wife,Meredith.”
“Oh, we’ve met,” Meredith says, dropping Nathan’s arm and slinking around Elijah like a snake. Her gaze bores into mine while her fingertips trail his shoulder. “Are you going to play with us tonight?” She bites at her lip, and Elijah moves out from under her touch. The thought of him fucking her causes my stomach totwist.
Nathan’s eyes drag over me like a filthyrag.
And it’s just too much. I can’t dothis.
This won’t make it any easier. It won’t make it hurt any less, it will just ruin my ability to believe we had something. And goddamn it, I want to be able to look at the stars again without hatingthem.
“Excuse me while I go to the restroom.” I turn on my heel and quickly head toward the patiostairs.
I hear Elijah call my name, but I ignore him. By the time I reach the open doorway, my pulse is thrumming in my neck. I’m halfway through the large living room before I stop dead in my tracks. Right in front of me, a woman lays on the couch, naked with her legs spread and a shirtless man between them. Two other half-naked men flank her sides. I blink, watching while the two men grope and suck her breasts. The moral side of me tells me to look away, but I can’t. The lavish furnishings that surround them make this almost artistically beautiful. Other guests walk past unfazed, while I stand frozen in shock that suddenly gives way to intrigue. I focus on how tightly her eyes are closed, on the way her breasts rise on ragged swells while her fingers play with the hair of the men kneeled around her in an act of worship. She seems so free, so comfortable. And I’m almost envious that she’s able to enjoy something most people would be too afraid to explore. The attention of the men at her sides drops to her lap when she opens her thighs wider for the man between herlegs.
Mixed signals fire through me. A wicked heat simmers in my veins. It’s not until I look away that I realize the other people scattered about the room are kissing, groping, undressing eachother.
“What the fuck…” I whisper just before I smell leather andspice.
“Demi…” Elijah grabs my hips and spins me around to face him. His nostrils flare and a crease forms in his brow. He’s uncertain. “I thought I could convincemyself…”
I swallow when he reaches for the strap of my dress, slowly sliding it from myshoulder.
“Convince yourself ofwhat?”
“That I was the one setting you free. But I was wrong. It’s you who’s set mefree.”
I’m motionless, like a deer in headlights. How could I possibly be setting this manfree?
“You’ve taught me that I’m capable ofthings…”
My heart pounds. My breathing is labored. My legs won’t budge to move me out of danger’s way, and I’m about to be hit head-on and left on the side of the road for dead. “Elijah…” Ibreathe.
“I know now. Please, don’t make me wait any longer.” He grabs the zipper to my dress, slowly unfastening it while he backs me toward the hallway. He slips the top of my dress down, exposing my breasts. My nipples tighten when my back hits the cold wall. From here, I can see the people in the other room, but my body is shielded from their view byElijah.
“Let me have you,” hesays.
My pulse hammers so hard it makes me woozy. I should stop this, but I want him so badly. Just one more minute… His teeth rake over my throat. I moan at the sudden pleasure of him pinching my nipple between his fingers. He yanks the dress over my hips. There’s the soft rip of the stitching before the material crumples to the floor. My heartbeat tumbles into a panicked frenzy, because I’m now standing naked in a stranger’smansion.
He grabs my thighs and lifts me, wrapping my legs around his waist before he pins my bare body to the wall. Before I can say a word, his hand is between us, his fingers thrusting into me fast and hard while he watches. I glance down to see his fingers work in and out together. The sight of my exposed body draped around him and his fancy suit is almost more than I can handle. I want him naked. I want him fucking me. Here. In this hallway. In the living room with all those other people. I don’t care where. At this moment, I just want him and his fantasies and all the sordid desires he canconjure.
I imagine what it would be like to have those other men serve as spectators for our personalporno.
“Do you want to fuck me?” Elijah fingers me harder, pulling me to that brink with practicedease.
“God yes.” I tug at his hair, yanking his head to the side so I can bite hisneck.
He fights away from my hold and grips my bottom lip between his teeth before kissing me hard and gracelessly, like a savage. “Will you let them watch when I fuckyou?”
