“This is how we ended up in this situation.” He smiles sweetly at me.
“Yeah, I guess you’re right.”
“What do you want to do?” he asks me quietly. I pause before answering in a rush.
“I want to keep it.” I look up at him through my lashes and see him nodding as if in agreement.
“Okay.”
“Okay…?”
“Yes. Okay.” He grabs my hand and squeezes it.
“It’s still very early, so I need to call the doctor…” I trail off as my mind spins with what I’m supposed to do next.
“We’ll figure it out together, tiger.” He kisses my hand, and my worries are at ease.
That night, we slept curled around each other. I wasn’t feeling up to fooling around, and Ben seemed content to follow my lead.
I can’t believe I’m pregnant.
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I’m going to be a father. I am going to be… a father.
The phrase plays on repeat in my mind as I lay in the dark. Emily is snoring softly beside me, but I’ve been restless since she showed me the test results. At first, I didn’t believe what I was seeing. I didn’t think Emily was pranking me, but it seemed impossible at first.
It’s still surreal we’re expecting a baby. I knew having kids was in my future, but I could never picture it happening when Melissa and I were together. Emily’s pregnancy announcement scared me at first. Of course, it did. It is a natural reaction to unexpected news. Though I’m not surprised she got pregnant so quickly since we’ve been fucking like cats in heat, she had been on birth control. I knew oral contraceptives were not completely reliable, but the chances of it failing were still low.
One thing is obvious: I can see a future with Emily in it. I can’t even imagine a life without her in it.
I’m going to be a father.
It seems absolutely absurd. How am I expected to take care of another person when I am barely holding myself together? Not to mention, a significant promotion is on the horizon,requiring overseas travel to manage our international sites. With a baby coming, I need to rethink my priorities.
And Emily? I know what I feel about her is more than just lust, but our relationship is still new. We’re still getting to know each other. Can we handle bringing on a baby right now?
One thing I know for certain is that whatever Emily decides, I will fully support her. If she decides to keep the baby, I will move heaven and earth to make it possible. We’ll probably need more space when the baby gets here. There are so many things we’ll have to consider if that’s what she decides.
And if she decides not to keep the baby? It would be a decision I know she wouldn’t make lightly. Even if the thought hurts, I’ll fully support her in her decision.
I’m going to be a father!
Thinking about it makes me even more sure I can be a great dad. Seeing Jason with his baby made me wonder what it would look like when my time came. Of course, I didn’t think it would happen as soon as it did, but the idea didn’t scare me as much as I thought it would.
I should probably feel more fear and anxiety than I do, but I suspect the woman by my side has something to do with alleviating my concerns. The thought of watching her swell with my child growing inside her fills me with pride. It’s primitive, but I can’t help it. Men are simple creatures, after all.
If anything, the idea turns me on so much I’ve been lying here with my cock at half-mast the entire time. Emily passed out almost as soon as her head hit the pillow. I don’t blame her. She’s trying to grow another human inside of her. My child.
I put a baby in her belly.
I think about what our future might look like with a child in the picture. I want to be able to provide everything they both will need. We’ll probably outgrow the apartment quickly, and thehousing market is improving. It might be one of the best times to buy a new house for the first time in almost a decade.
I know we’re doing things out of order, but eventually, we’ll have to discuss marriage.
