"It's just with everything that happened, I didn't just betray you and Scarlett, I betrayed him too. You're his best friend and Scarlett is his mate. I've fixed things with you and Scarlett and I needed to fix things with him." My eyes stayed on Blake. "I wanted to let him know that he can trust me. I needed him to understand that the most important people in his life are also the most important people in my life."
Blake knelt beside the bed and took my hands into his.
"I love you," he said softly, and I felt a swell of emotion for him.
"I love you too," I replied. I leaned forward and gently pressed my lips to his.
I wanted more from him but I wasn't ready. I hated being injured and being unable to do what I wanted when I wanted. Blake pulled away when my lips pressed harder against his.
"You need to behave," he teased, then he pressed a kiss to my nose.
I shifted over slightly and Blake kicked off his shoes and got into the bed with me.
The danger hanging over our heads made us want to hold on to each other in the time we still had together. There was no guarantee that Crystal was going to succeed and there was still a good chance that everything wasn’t going to end well.
Blake leaned against the headboard and wrapped an arm around my shoulder. I leaned my head against his shoulder.
“How many kids do you want?” he asked out of the blue.
I lifted my head to look up at him while he peered down at me.
“Kids?” I asked, not sure I’d heard him correctly.
“Yeah, kids,” he confirmed.
I’d never thought about that before. I’d always lived my life in the moment. I’d never taken the time to think about what I wanted in the future. Maybe it was because I’d always been so scared that I wouldn’t have one. A mother. I thought of my own mom. She had been so loving and caring. It was how I wanted to be. I nodded my head.
“I want kids.”
“Good,” Blake said as I felt the soft brush of his lips against my head.
“I want a little girl,” he began to tell me. “I want her to look just like you.”
My heart squeezed at his words. As much as I wanted to talk about the future we were going to have, I couldn’t shake the thought that Crystal could still fail and we would be in big trouble.
“What if Crystal doesn’t succeed?” I had to ask the question. Was there any point to looking into a future we might not have?
“We have to think about the future,” he explained. “If we are going to win this fight, we need a future worth fighting for.”
I squeezed him with my arm around his waist, hugging him.
“I want that future,” I whispered softly.
“Me too.”
We lay in the bed, wrapped in each other’s arms, silently thinking about the future we both wanted.
Later that day, after I’d had some sleep and some food, Curtis returned. Blake had gone to talk to Cade and he said he’d be back soon.
“I’m not sure she’s strong enough to do what needs to be done,” Curtis said as he rubbed his chin. We all seemed to be thinking the same thing.
“Have we come up with a way to get her in?” I asked.
It was important to get her into the pack without anyone becoming suspicious. I didn’t even want to think about what they might do to her if they found out she was a spy for us. Death would be the quick and easy way out.
She was a member of my pack and I felt responsible for her. If something happened to her, it would be on my head.
“We’ve decided the best way to get her into the pack without raising suspicion is to make sure she’s injured and when they find her they will assume we tried to kill her.”
