Page 47 of Wreaking Havoc
“You’re agitated,” Kai eventually said, when Sascha came out of the bathroom after brushing his teeth.
Sascha frowned at him. Possibly it was more of a pout. “I’m not.”
“I can feel it.” Kai placed a taloned hand on his chest, over the swirling tattoos there. They should have been distracting, with that endless motion, but Sascha had gotten used to them. It was almost comforting to watch now.
“You can really feel me there? My soul?”
“Yes,” Kai answered, staring intently, his eyes beginning to glow in the dim light of the room.
And because all Sascha’s past easy flirtatiousness with men seemed to have fled his body, he blurted out with zero finesse, “Are you going to fuck me now?”
“Would you like me to?” Kai asked in a purr. He ran his tongue over sharp teeth, and Sascha noticed for the first time that it wasn’t the light pink of a human’s tongue but a dusky blue.
Of course it was.
Sascha shuffled his feet in place, suddenly unsure. “I don’t know.”
Kai cocked his head, a lock of silky black hair falling over his chest. Sascha wanted to touch it. The hair or the chest or both. “And why don’t you know, zaychik?”
“When the contract’s done, you’ll be gone.”
There was silence as Kai stared at him, his expression unreadable.
God, Sascha was stupid for bringing this up, wasn’t he? This demon just wanted to get his dick wet, and Sascha was messing it all up with his stupid feelings.
Then Kai spoke. “I don’t have to leave. There is a way.”
Hope stole Sascha’s breath, bottling it up in his chest. “What way?” he whispered.
“A permanent bond.” A look of pure satisfaction crossed Kai’s face, as if the thought pleased him. “Amatingbond. I would no longer claim just a piece of your soul—I would be linked to all of it. Linked to this realm, and to you.”
That was about as clear as mud. Sascha tried to make sense of it. “So you’d stay here for—for my lifespan?”
Kai shook his head. “Mylifespan. You would be linked to me as well.”
“And how long is that?”
“A very, very long time. Longer than you can fathom. Your aging would slow to the point of imperceptibility.”
Cool. What an incredibly overwhelming proposal completely out of the blue. A breathless laugh escaped Sascha’s lips. “Well, that’s insane.”
Kai didn’t even flinch. “And why is that?”
“I mean…” Sascha lifted his hands in demonstration, trying to encompass everything. “We just met.”
Kai scoffed. “What does that matter? I’ve tasted your essence. I know you better than anyone.” His eyes narrowed. “You think perhaps you could not care for me?”
Now Sascha really laughed. “Not loving people isn’t my problem. My father was cruel and cold, but I still loved him. Just like I still love Ivan, even when he’s controlling and vicious. And Alexei, even though he left.” He continued babbling, his brain apparently no longer in control of his mouth. “I’d have loved my mom, if she’d have let me. If she’d stayed even a few more years, like she did for my brothers, I would have loved her forever.”
That was Sascha’s real flaw, wasn’t it? His horrible weakness. He couldn’t help loving the people around him, even if they were terrible people. Even if they tortured men and pushed Sascha away and left him all alone.
Kai stood, and even after their days together, his height still took Sascha’s breath away. “Then there’s no issue. I’m not human, Sascha. I don’t need your mortal reasoning to know what I want. I run on instinct.” He stepped toward Sascha. “On desire.” Another step and he was close enough that all Sascha could smell was that spicy, smoky scent. Kai’s voice lowered almost to a whisper. “And what Idesire…is you.”
Sascha didn’t know what to say. So of course he found himself blurting out, “You haven’t even fucked me with that monstrous dick of yours yet.”
Kai traced a finger down Sascha’s neck, leaving a trail of fire in its wake. “Is that what needs to happen for you to decide?”
And then broad hands were wrapping around the backs of Sascha’s thighs, and he was being lifted up with ease. “Very well, then. Let’s get to it.”
