He frowns.
“I’m not sure if I’m good at it.”
“Just be with me, as close as possible.” I reach out to him, and then he leans in and hovers over me, resting his hand near my face. Our bodies touch; his hips rub against the inside of my thighs. Jan takes his cock in his hand, and eases it into me. He fills me inch by inch, looking into my eyes. An ecstatic thrill makes me shiver with pleasure and warmth engulfs my body, taking my breath away.
“Is this good?” He doesn’t take his eyes off me. I can see how hard he’s trying to make it perfect.
“It’s wonderful.” Tears gather under my eyelids.
Holy shit, I’m about to burst into tears here and now. For the first time I feel that someone cares about me so much. And I really don’t want to spoil it. I want us to succeed. I know there will be many sacrifices, difficulties, conversations, misunderstandings ahead of us. But I’m not going to give up. For a man like Jan, it’s worth making compromises, giving up many pleasures that seemed ordinary, obvious, and natural until now.
Jan kisses my lips, moves inside me with a calm rhythm. I can feel his breath on me, his scent, his closeness, his commitment. And I can’t imagine ever being with another man again. I don’t want another, I want him. With all his quirks, flaws, with all his uniqueness.
A tear slips out of the corner of my eye and runs down my cheek, followed by another and another.
Jan freezes. He looks at me confused.
“What happened?”
I wipe away a tear.
“You happened, Jan.”
“I told you I’m not good at it. Why don’t we try anal sex?”
I laugh through my tears. God, this guy disarms me. I embrace his face in my hands. Firmly, just the way he likes it.
“I’m in love with you.”
“I don’t understand.”
“I’m crying because I’m in love with you. It’s from happiness.”
“So am I good at it after all?”
“Perfect, in fact.”
A smile comes to his face, but after a while it disappears as quickly as it appeared.
“Does this mean that as of today we will have sex only in this way?”
I burst out laughing.
“No way, don’t worry.”
“That’s good. It’s quite a comfortable position and you look beautiful now, but I also like to look at your perfect ass during sex.”
“I know. Would you like to have a look now?”
His eyes light up.
“Very much so.” He starts to move inside me.
“Will you take me from behind?”
“Yes.”
I can feel him filling me whole. Our breathing is getting faster and faster and a renewed desire is building in us.
