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“Please don’t leave like this.”
“I can’t do this.”
Those words broke his heart. He let go of Josh and let him leave. A few seconds later, he heard the front door close and lay down on his bed. His pillows still smelt of Josh. He breathed in his scent and did something he hadn’t since his marriage ended– he cried himself to sleep.
CHAPTER 7
JOSH
“What are you doing here?” asked Carly.
“I live here,” said Josh.
He’d been hoping Carly would have had an early night or something, but it was only eight thirty. He’d gotten the Tube back from Hampstead, not wanting to spend money on a cab. It had been the first time all weekend he’d paid for anything, and wasn’t that a sobering thought? Daniel might have a similar background to Josh, but their lives were very different now. Even without theircomplication, which was putting it mildly, they were poles apart. An intense weekend of amazing sex was all Josh could ever hope for with someone like Daniel Harper.
“What’s wrong?” asked Carly.
He wasn’t sure why, but he burst into tears. Carly rushed over to him and pulled him into a hug. Josh dropped his bag and hugged her back. She guided him over to the sofa and held him whilst he cried it out. Josh was supposed to be the strong one, but right now he was a wreck.
“Are you ready to talk about it, or do I need to kick Daniel’s arse?”
He chuckled, imagining her doing that.
“Daniel’s done nothing wrong, other than being best friends with the sperm donor.”
Carly’s jaw dropped. Josh couldn’t help but laugh.
“If that’s a joke, it’s not very funny.”
“Not a joke, unfortunately. But your face. I’ve never seen you speechless before.”
“Did he know this whole time? Cos that would be fucked up.”
“No, he didn’t. He didn’t even know his friend had another kid.”
“So why is he defending that arsehole?”
“He wasn’t. I think he was in shock.”
“What did he say after he found out?”
“I dunno, I left.”
“He kicked you out?”
“No, I didn’t want to stay there and make it awkward for him. It was easier for me to leave, rather than for him to ask me to.”
“Josh.”
“What? They’ve been friends for twenty years. He’s known me for two days. I think we both know who he’d pick.”
“You’re in love with him,” said Carly, with a sympathetic look on her face.
“Don’t be ridiculous,” he scoffed. “He was just a hot guy with a big dick for a weekend of fun.”
“If you’re trying to shock me so I’ll shut up, it’s not going to work. How big?”
“Carly! I am not answering that question.”
