Noah lifted our joined hands and kissed the back of mine.
"It's because we are soulmates, and we connected on so many levels." He kissed my hand again. "It's getting late. Let's get you home." He stood from the bench before helping me up.
When I was on my feet, Noah stood in front of me and wrapped his arms around my waist. He gazed down into my eyes. I could see the love he had for me in them, but I also saw something else. I wasn't sure if it was uncertainty or what, but I knew it was something. Hopefully, therapy would help him sort out his feelings as well. Whatever it was, we would get through it.
The morning after the fight,I woke up with Carsyn in my arms. We didn't have sex, but I was okay with that. I was content with holding her and being in her presence.
When we got home, we showered separately and got into bed. I knew the day had been a lot for her. I couldn't imagine the things she felt. Things didn't seem to bother her much, but I knew it did. I didn't think watching a boxing match would affect her the way it did, and I now hated that I took her. I felt like it was my fault that she had that reaction. I probably should have waited longer. I wanted to see if it would help her regain her memories or at least make her happy. Instead, it did the complete opposite. I made sure I got her out of there as soon asit was possible. I didn't go into full detail when I texted Evander, but he understood it.
I wasn't completely sold on the idea of going to therapy, but if it would make Carsyn happy, I would consider it. Maybe I'd wait to see how things turned out for her. I thought I hid my fear of her leaving me, but I could tell she knew something was going on with me.
When I was by myself, I thought about Carsyn leaving, and sometimes the thought suffocated me. She could fully recover with no recollection of our marriage and leave me. It was a conversation I had with myself every day. I prayed about it too.
Nia stayed the night at Carsyn's parents' house, so I eased out of bed to call them. I didn't want to wake Carsyn, but I wanted to check on Nia and let them know we would pick her up once we got ourselves together.
Once I was out of bed, I went into the bathroom to empty my bladder and brush my teeth. After I was done, I grabbed my phone off the nightstand and headed downstairs. I knew Carsyn would be hungry once she woke up, so I wanted to fix breakfast for us.
My phone vibrated as I walked down the steps, and it was a text message from my father telling me to call him when I got a chance.
Once in the kitchen, I grabbed what I needed to make omelets then dialed my dad. It was a good thing I left my earphones on the counter so I could multitask.
"What's up, Pops?" I asked when my dad answered.
"How did it go last night?"
I shared the details of how the night went with my dad as I whipped the eggs and cheese in a bowl. I had a pack of bacon out as well. I also cut up a pepper and some onions. Carsyn wasn't a fan of peppers in her omelet, so I only cut up enough for me.
"It may take time for her to get used to it, or maybe she never will. The only thing you can do is support her in whatever she does," my father advised once I finished telling him everything.
"And that's what I told her. I don't know how I feel about therapy, though."
"I think it's a good idea for both of you. I think you should go separately and together. It will be good for y'all's relationship. None of this is easy for any of us. I've been praying every day that you two make it through this and come out stronger than y'all were before."
"I hear you."
I poured the eggs into the pan, then put the bacon in another pan to cook them both at the same time.
I didn't think about us going to couples therapy, but maybe he was right. We would be able to talk about the things we both might be hesitant to say to each other.
"Listen, I called to see if you guys wanted to come over later. I'll throw some food on the grill, and we can all hang out like a family. I already talked to everyone else, and everyone is down with it as long as Carsyn is."
Having family time might be good for Carsyn. I felt like I'd been a little selfish, but I just wanted her to get used to being around myself and Nia again. Maybe all of us being together would help jog her memory, even if it was a little bit.
"I'll see what she says when she gets up. Last night was overwhelming for her, so I wanted her to rest. I'm making breakfast for us now, so I'm sure she'll be up soon. I'll let you know."
"Works for me. If she doesn't, that's fine. Just let me know either way."
"I will."
We talked for a few more minutes about a lady he met at Home Depot last week. He told me how they exchangednumbers and planned to go on a date soon. I was happy that he was trying to date again because that last one did a number on him.
By the time we hung up and the food was done, Carsyn had come downstairs.
"Good morning, Noah," she greeted me as she entered the kitchen and sat at the table.
"Good morning, Care Bear." I walked over to her and kissed her forehead.
"Why didn't you wake me up?"
