Page 7 of Serenity
She sniffled. “I love you, too. You know that,right?”
“Ido.”
“And I want to be just as good for you as you areforme.”
Shit.Was that what’d been worrying her? That I was giving her more than she was doing for me? If so, my plan for tonight could backfire in a major way. It was something we’d already talked about, but the price tag was high and it might reinforce the feeling that I was giving more than her in our relationship. At least financially, but that shit wasn’t important. Between my trust fund and what my job with my dad paid, I had more than enough money. But there was only one woman who was meant for me, and that was Faith. “Don’t you realize how fucking amazing you are? The impact you’ve already had on me is insane, Faith. You’ve changed my whole world for thebetter.”
“Areyousure?”
I didn’t hesitate to respond. “There isn’t a single doubt inmymind.”
“Ijust—”
It killed me that she didn’t know how important she was to me. “Faith,” I snapped to get her attention. “Before we met, I struggled with losing Declan every damn day, and I felt like I’d never find an end to the darkness that was my life. My mom was able to arrange for us to finally meet because I got into a fight at a casino, and I was in deep shit with my parents. My life was a shit showbackthen.”
“Andnow?”
“I still have bad days, but instead of heading to a casino to gamble my way through them, I go home to you.” I wasn’t used to saying shit like this, but I’d open a damn vein for her if that’s what it took to make her happy. “Where there used to only be darkness in my world, now there’s light...becauseofyou.”
“Really?” Her question was whisper soft, as though she didn’t believe she had such a big impact on me. I was going to have to work on that; get her to the point where she felt more secure about her place in my life. Convince her that the value she brought to our relationship waspriceless.
“Really,baby.”
“Okay,” shesighed.
“Okay?”
“Yeah, okay.” That time she said it with morecertainty.
I knew we hadn’t solved everything with one conversation, but at least now I had a better idea of what was going on inside her head. I figured that was half the battle. “Then you’d better get your ass in gear so you’ll be ready to go when Igethome.”
