Page 15 of Scent of Sanctuary
Signing in, my username ‘strawberrybubbles’ pops up and I smile as three little pink dots dance along the screen as it logs me into the chatroom. The moment I’m in, there’s a flurry of messages.
Razorfox – Shit, she’s here!
Coolblue – Bubbles! You’re back! I thought the shadows in your house ate you alive or something.
MacNCheese – Glad to see you.
Strawberrybubbles – Just had a few things going on.
I snuggle a little deeper into my new pillows, Ambrose’s thick scent wrapping around me. I thought it’d terrify me, them being this close and now I’m realizing how much I’ve missed. How much I could have had if I just let myself feel.
The problem is that I still feel selfish.
They didn’t ask to have an Omega like me.
I let out a heavy sigh, checking on the screen again.
MacNCheese – You good? We were a little worried last week.
Strawberrybubbles – I’m okay, I think, My brothers’ friends came over today. It was one of their birthdays and I made dinner.
Razorfox – Seriously? That’s great!
Coolblue – When are we going to hear you call them your Alphas? Bubbles, we all know.
Strawberrybubbles – They’re not mine. They just…
I hover over the keys, letting out a huff of frustration.
Strawberrybubbles – They confessed to me today.
There’s a flurry of messages congratulating me and a slew of emojis but MacNCheese asks the one question I wish he wouldn’t have.
MacNCheese – Why do I get the feeling you didn’t say yes? Bubbles, they literally just gave you the entire world. Scratch that. They brought it to you!
Razorfox – I love my Alphas but hearing how one of them takes you on video dates or the other does movie nights? I would kill for a little evening cuddle that doesn’t end up in sex.
Coolblue – You like sex, though.
Razorfox – Yeah I do. =P
Strawberrybubbles – I’m scared that something will happen. I know my brother would have never asked them to be in here if he thought something would happen but that doesn’t change how terrified I am.
Coolblue – Then talk to them. Tell them what your limits are.
Strawberrybubbles – Then they’ll leave.
Coolblue – No, they won’t. I hate getting into the feels here but Bubbles, I couldn’t stand being touched before I met my pack. I hid most of the time. My ex left me bruised half the time. He couldn’t control himself in a rut. My new pack? They were so careful with me until I opened up on my own. They showed me that touch isn’t something to be scared of.
I had absolutely no idea Coolblue had been through any of that. He’s usually the free-spirited one of us all.
Razorfox – You told us that you let them touch you when you need it, though. Why is it any different now?
Strawberrybubbles – I don’t know. It just is.
Coolblue – Let them prove themselves.
Strawberrybubbles – But if something goes wrong? I would fall apart. I can’t lose them.
