Page 56 of Falling Together
Blair chuckled between deep breaths. “Definitely. Wouldn’t want it to feel left out.”
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The alarm went off on Blair’s phone as she struggled to catch her breath from yet another amazing orgasm. “Shit. I set that as a reminder of our dinner reservations. We're supposed to be there in a half hour.”But I really don’t want to get out of this bed.
“Can I be honest?” Erin asked with a laugh. “It’s super sweet you made those reservations, but the last thing I want to do right now is leave this room.”
“Oh, thank god.” Blair burst into laughter as well. She couldn’t help it. She was so fucking happy right now. “I don’t want to either.”
“Room service?”
Blair held up her pointer finger. “One condition.” She made a point of running her eyes up and down Erin’s body, which was not a hard task, becausefuck, this woman was hot. “You have to eat naked.”
Erin smirked and lifted her eyebrows. “I will if you will.”
Blair laughed again. “Oh, you don’t have to worry about that. I have no plans of putting my clothes on.”
After ordering almost everything on the menu, Blair and Erin made small talk while they waited for the food to arrive. It was so normal and mundane and everything Blair wanted for the rest of her life.Speaking of which…“I kind of lied earlier,” Blair said hesitantly. She hated to burst this sex haze they were in, but she needed to say this before she chickened out.
Erin sat up in the bed, a look of concern overtaking her face. “What do you mean? About what?”
Blair took Erin’s hand and held it between hers. “It’s nothing bad. I promise.” Blair took a deep breath through her nose and blew it out through her mouth. This was definitely the most vulnerable she had ever been with a woman. “I just… I didn’t actually want that to be a one-time thing. I know you said it would never work, but I want more than just sex. I want sleepygood morningsand goodnight kisses and yeah, I want more sex, but I want the big messy feelings that come along with it.”
Blair could see it written all over Erin’s face the moment the words left her mouth. Whatever Erin had to say was not going to lead to their happily ever after. “Listen, what just happened between us was the most magical experience of my entire life, but it can’t happen again. I wish I could open my heart to you completely, but it’s too big of a risk.”
“Why is it such a risk?”
“Blair, when I interviewed you for this babysitting position, you made it sound like you really never wanted children. When you date a single mom, you’re not just dating her.”
“I know.” Blair squeezed Erin’s hand and scooted closer to her. “I don’t just want a relationship with you. I’m in this for both of you.”
“I’m just…” Blair wasn’t expecting Erin to burst into tears, but that was exactly what happened. “I’m too scared. I’m not ready.”
Blair used one hand to rub Erin’s back. “It’s okay. I’m willing to wait until you are, until then we can be strictly friends. No funny business until you’re ready.”
“But what if I can’t get there? What if I’m never ready?”
Blair shrugged. It was getting harder to keep a smile on her face. “Then at least I can say that I tried.”
Erin threw her hands in the air. “You shouldn’t have to. It’s not fair to you. My past shouldn’t shapeyourfuture.”
Blair was losing her and needed to do something to bring her back down to earth. “Shh. It’s okay.” She wrapped both arms around Erin and held her tight. “How ’bout this? Let’s take it one day at a time and see what happens. Just don't count me out, okay?”
“One day at a time?” Erin asked, sounding more hopeful now.
Blair nodded slowly. “One day at a time.”
Erin nodded too. “Okay. I can do that.”
Hopefully I can too,Blair thought to herself.
***
After two more hours of eating and chatting over much lighter topics, Blair decided they should probably relieve Marisol. They both reluctantly got dressed, then Blair texted Marisol to say they were done eating and back at their hotel room.
Perfect timing, Marisol texted back,We were just heading that way.
Less than five minutes later, there was a knock at the hotel room door. “Mommy? Bear?”
