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Freya:You had your first kiss!!!
Freya:With a rockstar!!!
Freya:And you didn't tell me :(
Freya:But I'm still happy for you—bcI'm a good cousin.Details, Ror.I want ALL of them.
Scarlett:How was the show? Was it amazing? I bet it was amazing!If you get a second,text me. Also, you and Felix are so cute!!! <333
Viola:Ror…that kiss was everything!I watched it way too many times :). Is that guy Felix a dog lover? He looks like one. Hope you're having fun!
Was Felix a dog lover?
I'd have to ask him.
Lottie:As a romantic, I have to say that kiss was a 10 out of 10! If you need to talk, I'm here! And…just don't panic, okay? That moment is for you and Felix. Remember that.
I took all their words to heart but Lottie's most of all. She knew exactly what I was going through—well, not with the tour. But Lottie and Bo knew a thing or two about a personal moment going viral. As such, her comment really struck me.
The kiss. My first kiss. It was ours. There was nothing to panic over because…no one could take that away from us.
A sense of calm washed over me.
To be honest, I'd never gotten to the full-blown panic I expected.
And why had I been so nervous about Izzy's suggestion?
Would it really be so bad to fake date Felix?
To touch him?
And possibly kiss him again?
Butterflies danced in my stomach at that thought.
What was I so afraid of?
Contrary to Izzy's assumption, I did have social media.My accountjust didn't have many posts or followers outside of my family.Reason: Being online too much triggered my anxiety. I could only take so much before I felt drained.I logged on now and rewatched the videos. They made me smile slightly.If this was another couple, I would've eaten it up with a spoon.It really did look like there was something between Felix and me.
But there's not, I reminded myself.
It's all pretend.
Izzy and Taylor were right about one thing.
People were in love with love. My cousins were living proof, and I had tons of romance novels, songs, and movies to back it up too.The number of views and comments was crazy.Would it really be so bad to give them what they want?
My breath hitched.
If Felix and I fake dated, there was a very real chance I might fall for him.Honestly, I was probably halfway there.
Could I keep my real feelings in check?
Was it worth the risk?
And also…
Was I brave enough to find out?
