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“Maybe the sneaking around is kind of hot?” said Paladin. “It’s sort of fun to feel like you’re getting away with something.”
“True,” I said. “But I’m glad everyone knows. I don’t want to come between you at all.”
“Nah, we’re tight,” said Kestrel, but that sounded too quick for me too.
“You guys both like fucking me, you mean,” said Paladin. “But I have to say, I don’t get it. Why?”
“Shut up, because you’re you,” muttered Lazarus.
“But what does that even mean?” said Paladin. “Because, like, none of us, if we were able to choose, would choose to have sex with men—”
“Shut up, because clearly we would,” said Lazarus. A long pause. “Wait, you’re saying you don’t like it when I do this to you, because, for shit’s sake, Paladin—”
“No, I guess I’m not,” said Paladin thoughtfully. “I guessI’m definitely not saying that.”
“So, you do like it? Because you can say no. You’re allowed to say no,” said Lazarus. “If you ever think that I would force you—”
“No, Lazarus, sorry,” said Paladin, twisting around to kiss him reassuringly. “No,” he whispered. “I don’t feel forced.”
“This is why there’s no point in talking about this shit,” said Kestrel. “People just get worked up—”
“We need to work through these feelings, though,” I said.
“So, this is what it’s like having a woman in the house, apparently,” muttered Kestrel.
“Oh, whatever,” I said, rolling my eyes. “Don’t even pretend to complain, because I’m the best thing that ever happened to you, and we all know it.”
Kestrel tightened his grip on me, planting fervent kisses on my neck. “Fuck yes, you are, baby girl, fuck yes.”
I shut my eyes and gave him access to kiss me, and Paladin reached over to touch my face and made a little noises, which Lazarus echoed.
“We bonded over Paladin,” said Kestrel. “We were already, like, a unit, and then you came along, and we all three mated you. It’s unconventional, but it’s good. It’s just fucking good.”
“No need to overthink it because it feels right,” agreed Lazarus.
“But, like, are we gay?” said Paladin. “This is the burning question.”
“I mean, no,” said Kestrel.
“But if we enjoy, you know, having sex with each other…” Paladin trailed off in a leading way.
“Okay, the term, you guys, would be bisexual,” I said to them.
They all scoffed at this.
Then Kestrel repeated it, like he was turning the word over on his tongue. “Bisexual.”
“Whatever,” said Paladin. “I’m totally straight. I just like a cock in my asshole now and again.” Then he cracked up,and Lazarus started laughing too, and Kestrel also laughed.
“Look, my sexual orientation is Clementine and Paladin, end of story,” said Kestrel.
“Yeah,” said Lazarus.
But I was noticing the way Lazarus was looking at Kestrel. Hmm. Well, we’d see about that, wouldn’t we?
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