Page 97 of Unfix Me
“Tell me.”
He nipped at my lip, then rubbed his nose against mine. “What if you saw a real therapist?”
The idea made me feel a little panicked. “No.”
“Well, can we at least keep the door open?”
“You think I’m that screwed up.”
“I think you were forced into freaking conversion therapy, Sen. That’s not a small thing, no matter who you are. I just want you to heal and it could help you a lot. There are professionals who specialize in the specific issues gay people face.”
My lip trembled and he ran his thumb over it. I didn’t want to, but he was right. And if he was sacrificing so much for me, I could do this. It was just therapy. They weren’t going to be like Derek or the counselors at Dumont.
“I love you,” he said against my cheek. “All I want is what’s best for you.”
Turning over, I pushed him onto his back and climbed on top of him. His hands settled at the backs of my thighs as I kissed him. When I moved my hips, I felt his dick hardening against me.
I quickly grabbed the lube I kept in my nightstand now. Prepping didn’t even matter to me at the moment. We’d done this a lot in the past couple of weeks and I just wanted to feel him inside of me. We’d be apart while I was with my parents and I dreaded it.
When I began to lower myself onto him, he sat up and held onto my ass with both hands. His teeth clamped down on my neck. It was one of many things I loved about Kai in bed. I never thought I’d be into getting bit, but he made it incredibly sexy. The pressure he applied changed as I sunk lower. When his head slipped inside of me, I thought he was going to break my skin.
He released my neck and traced the marks with his tongue. His breath stuttered against me as I lowered myself the rest of the way. Gripping my hair, he tilted my head back and kissed the column of my throat.
“Tell me you’re mine, Seneca.”
“Always.”
Holding onto his shoulders, I raised and lowered myself slowly. My dick slid against his stomach with each movement. He continued kissing and biting along my neck and shoulders. Every one brought me closer to the edge.
He took my legs and wrapped them more fully around him so that my feet met in the back. Holding onto my hips, he rocked me against him, driving himself deeper in this position. He swore and a long hum came from his throat. When he closed his eyes, I pushed my fingers through his hair.
“Look at me.”
That beautiful green color was the only thing I saw as a wave of pleasure shot down my spine. My dick twitched between us and I gasped from how good it felt. Kai expertly flipped me onto my back and pushed my knees to my chest. He thrust into me hard, somehow drawing out my orgasm.
“Sen,” he panted. “You feel too goddamn good, baby.”
He bit down on my ankle, smothering the loud sound that tore from his throat. I was shocked by it, but also turned on all over again. As he caught his breath, he looked a little wild.
Suddenly, he leaned down and grabbed my jaw. When he got close to my face, he jumped from wild to feral.
“You’re coming back to me,” he stated firmly, leaving no room for argument. “I will fly to Colorado and break down your parents’ door if I feel concerned for a single second. Do you understand?”
Taking the hand that was on my jaw, I pried it away and kissed his palm. “I’m coming back to you. I’d fight my way through hell for you, Malachi.”
His eyes narrowed before he broke into a grin. “Don’t get so formal on me, Sen. It’s weird.”
*****
Me and Kai got to the airport at the same time, even though my flight was later than his. I wanted to spend every last second with him. Before he boarded his plane, he asked me- not for the first time- if I’d just go with him. I wanted to. Gods know I wanted to. But I didn’t.
Grabbing my suitcase from baggage claim, I extended the handle and took a deep breath. I could see my dad’s sedan outside. It didn’t seem real. I’d only been gone for about four months, but I was coming home as a different person.
Home didn’t sound right. That’s not what this was. It was where my parents lived, but I knew that it couldn’t be my home again. Not unless I became what they wanted me to be, which I couldn’t do.
When I approached the car, the driver’s side door opened. My dad’s face mirrored what I’d seen after he caught me with Victor. It automatically made my gut tighten. Why did he even want me here if he clearly couldn’t stand the sight of me?
I wished Kai could have come with me. He would’ve made sure that I didn’t sink into this horrible feeling that was already threatening to drown me.
