Page 80 of Heartless
“I don’t have a condom. I didn’t plan this,” I curled my fingers inside her. “I fantasized about it but I never thought you would actually let me touch you like this.”
“I’m not on birth control,” she panted. “But I’m clean. You can pull out.”
Even the slightest chance of gettinganyonepregnant was a deal breaker for me. I knew that statistically speaking it was nearly impossible for history to repeat itself like that. But it wasn’t good enough for me. Not after I had buried my wife and my son. I just couldn’t risk it. It was too much for me to bear.
And getting Madison Hartley pregnant? A woman who couldn’t decide if she hated me or not? A woman who counted the days until she could go back to her life in New York?
“I don’t have unprotected sex.” I leaned back a little and tried to read her face. She looked high on pleasure. So responsive, so immersed into the moment. For any other reason I wouldn’t be able to walk away from her.
I reluctantly pulled my fingers out.
Madison looked at me then nodded and took my hand in hers and started walking towards her bedroom. We stopped at the foot of her bed and she turned to face me.
“You’ve been with women after... Haven’t you?”
I shook my head. “It’s not that I don’t want to. Believe me. If I had a condom, I would be balls deep inside you right now.”
She slid my suit jacket off my shoulders. “I believe you. And I remember you promised you would let me be a bad girl and torture you like you tortured me.”
That eased the knots in my stomach a bit. I wasn’t used to talking about Franny and I certainly didn’t want to do that at that moment. With a fully naked woman I had just eaten.
I thrusted my hands into her hair. “Torture away.” Then I slammed my mouth down on hers and devoured her slowly as she undressed me. The urgency from a few minutes ago was gone.
My hands started to roam, caressing her naked body. I gripped her hips, pulling her close to me. I could feel her need, her desire, her lust. It was intoxicating. As soon as I was fully naked, she broke the kiss, trailing her lips down my neck.
My cock throbbed. Madison reached down, cupping my balls with one hand and stroking my dick with the other. My heart pounded in my chest. Then she released my cock from her grip and gently pushed me towards the bed.
I tugged on her hand and she fell on top of me. We were skin to skin. Not a single item of clothing between us. The feel of another human being’s warmth against me consumed me. She tried to slide down my body, but I put a hand on the small of her back, plastering her to me.
“Kiss me,” I ordered her a bit too harshly, but as much as this was like a pivotal moment for me and my life from this day forward, the weight of my emotions was a bit too much for me too.
Madison covered my mouth with hers, her hair falling around my face. I trusted my hands in it, squeezing fistfuls as I angled her head the way I wanted it. She moaned into our kiss. It was too much. The slide of her velvet skin against me, the tickle of her hair, the sounds she made. Somewhere in the back of my head a voice whispered.
She is not the right woman.
You didn’t even give her the full story.
You’re not ready for this.
And even if the first two were true, the last one wasn’t. I knew I was ready.
I lost myself in the kiss, our bodies molding together perfectly. Madison pulled away first, panting heavily. I could see the uncertainty in her gaze. I had probably confused the hell out of her, so I cupped her face in my hands and kissed her again.
My hands moved down to her hips and I rocked her back and forth against me, her wetness smearing against my thigh. She was so wet, it made me feral. I growled into the kiss and she pulled away.
This time I let her slide down my body. I closed my eyes, expecting her to wrap her hand around my shaft first, but I felt her tongue on me instead.
“Fuck,” I hissed, my hips bucking up to meet her warm, soft lips.
Madison sucked half of me into her mouth, using her tongue to twirl around the head of my dick. She sucked and swirled, taking all of me in until I was pressed against the back of her throat.
My breath was coming out in ragged bursts, and I knew I wouldn’t last long.
I reached down to cup her breasts, then I rolled her nipples between my fingers. The sound she made around my cock reverberated inside my body.
“Oh, fuck. Don’t stop,” I growled, my hands tangling in her hair again.
My body tensed, close to the edge of the orgasm. Madison quickened her pace, sucking me harder and faster.
