Page 48 of Endgame

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Page 48 of Endgame

I WAS SLOWLY coming to the conclusion that I was a masochist. Sitting in my room, rereading my mother’s journal over and over and making myself feel sad so I wouldn’t forget her wasn’t normal.

Fuck, everything was so screwed up and blurry now. I wanted so bad to morph back to my early childhood. Things were so much easier when I was a kid and had my parents to make the hard decisions and do the worrying for me.

Having breakfast with Six this morning had screwed with my head. It was the reason I was sitting here torturing myself with my mother’s memory.

Something inside of me was drawn to her and it disgusted me.

In a sick way, I felt like I was betraying my mother by liking the daughter of Dad’s new wife.

It had been so easy to hate all the others.

I couldn’t understand why it was different now.

Whyshewas different.

But I knew she was, and that only made me more determined to force her out of my world.

Mercedes

I CALLED MOLLY after work on Tuesday and asked if she wanted to hang out. I hadn’t expected her to drop all her plans and invite me over there and then, but that’s exactly what she did.

Molly’s house was impressive. Like Rourke’s, it was huge and had that pungent smell of money, though it wasn’t nearly as impressive as his place.

I had picked up some junk food on my way over, to which she thanked me at least a dozen times. It wasn’t necessary. I was grateful for the friendship she was offering me. I wasn’t the easiest person in the world to be around.

Growing up, I tended to stick to myself anyway. There wasn’t much point in laying down roots and making deep connections with people when I could be moved on at any moment in time.

It wasn’t like I was completely antisocial; Ihadfriends in my old schools,but I had just learned from an early age to depend on myself. But that didn’t mean I didn’t appreciate having Molly as my ally in this town.

I was also pretty certain she was a little nutty, but I liked her crazy. It complimentedmycrazy, and I had a feeling I would be sticking to this strange girl like glue.

We’d been sprawled out in her living room for the past couple of hours, talking shit and watching back to back episodes of Teen Wolf.

Turned out, Molly and I had a lot in common. We were both single, both seventeen, both social outcasts, and liked pretty much all the same movies and TV shows. We were also both brought up by single parents, although, Molly’s mother had passed away when she was a child, while my father was a John Doe.

“Do you want another coke?” Molly asked, eyeing the empty can on the floor next to the couch I was lazing on.

“Sure, thanks.” Lazily, I raised my thumb, eyes glued to the screen. “Hot damn, that boy is beyond beautiful?”

Molly giggled. “Who; Jackson or Scott?”

I scrunched my nose up in disapproval. Was she blind? “Stiles!”

She disappeared from the room, returning a few minutes later with two cans of Coke and a bag of potato chips.

When Molly handed me the can, my eyes landed on the marred skin covering her wrist, but this time I couldn’t pretend I hadn’t seen it. “What happened there?” I asked, eyes locked on her hand. If this girl was to be my friend, I couldn’t ignore the evidence that she might be cutting.

Molly smiled sadly. “I was wondering how long it would be before you asked.”

“You don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want to,” I added awkwardly. “But I’d be a shitty friend if I didn’t tell you that there are other ways to deal with stress. You don’t need to hurt yourself, Molly. And I know we barely know each other, but if you ever need someone to talk to…” I shrugged. “I’m here.”

“Thank you?” Molly offered with a rueful smile. “But I don’t self-harm. Those scars have been there since childhood,” she continued to say. “I was pulled from a house fire when I was nine.” Molly pulled up both sleeves of her long-sleeved shirt, revealing charred, crinkly, reddish, purple skin. “My legs look the same.” She pushed her sleeves back down again.

“Oh.” Mortified, I began to apologize profusely. “I’m such a dope. God. I’m sorry. I thought… I don’t know what I thought –”

“Mercy, it’s okay,” Molly replied with a gentle smile. “Actually, it’s really sweet of you to care.” Grinning she added, “I can assure you I have more than enough burns and scars on my body already. I have no plans on adding to them.”

Jesus. “I’m so embarrassed,” I muttered, red-faced.