Page 41 of Samhain
I swear I saw the heavens part when he closed his lips around the tip and sucked me all the way back. I dragged my hands through his soft, thick hair, the way I had all those years ago, and I groaned loud and slow and satisfying. He chuckled but took his part seriously, like he needed this as much as I did.
Had he pined for me the way I had for him? Did seeing me impact him just as much?
I panted and hissed in a breath as the pain mixed with pleasure, bursting up my spine and down my legs to my toes.
It didn’t take long. A few good minutes had me clenching my fingers into fists and coming in the back of his throat, a moan barreling out of the depths of mine. He let me use him however I needed and, once I was a writhing mess, Lex sat back on his haunches and sighed as the spell lifted. The ache in my gut subsided, the fog in my head cleared, and this heavy anvil in my chest finally let go.
Whatever it was, whatever it needed from us, it had finally been satisfied by my arrival.
“Welcome home,” Lex said with a pleased smile, patting my chest.
“What the fuck was I supposed to do?” I rubbed my knuckles over my eyes as I sat in their enormous bathtub, Lex on my left, Ivy directly across from me with Miri in her lap. “I had to stay to finish filming. I’d breach my contract if I didn’t.”
“You filmed like that?” Miri rested her head on Ivy’s shoulder, grinning mischievously at me.
“The last four or five scenes, yeah.” The thought made me laugh. “I told them I had food poisoning. Thank God for black pants, right?”
“I was in the UK.” Miri sighed, shaking her head. “I ran away. I’m sure my grandmother will send the royal army to retrieve me any moment.”
“We were in bed,” Ivy said.
“Woke me up out of a dead sleep,” Lex added.
My focus drifted to Miri, who wore the same expression of curiosity-laced jealousy that throbbed in my heart. They were in bed? Doing what? I wanted to know, I needed to know, but would I be able to bear the brunt of the truth once I did? What if they were fucking? Would that hurt? Would I be excited?
“You two seem good,” Miri said for me, pointing between Lex and Ivy.
“Surprisingly well adjusted,” I added.
“It’s all a show,” Ivy said, rolling her steel eyes. “Don’t be fooled. Lex and I hate each other even more these days.”
“I don’t believe you ever hated each other,” I said, because what the hell? We might as well be honest with each other. We had too many years of bullshit between us to start lying now.
“Maybe Ivy hated Lex,” Miri added. “But Lex has always had it bad for our Weeds.” She tickled Ivy, who squirmed and sloshed around in the water. Ivy grabbed her hands and trapped them between their bodies, and Miri bit her bottom lip, eyes going from playful to sinful in a heartbeat. Ivy, bless her, reciprocated. Part of me wanted to egg them on, the same part that wanted to devour both of them until we couldn’t stand. But after the last three days, I needed to sleep for at least ten.
“We’re not together,” Lex said, lighting a cigarette and inhaling deep before pinching it between his index and middle fingers. “Not the way the media thinks.”
“All of this”—Ivy gestured to the bite marks on her neck and arms—“it’s because of the lust. It only happened a few times after…” She cleared her throat. “Well, just after.”
After the breakup.
After they ended this amazing thing over text.
After they told us never to contact them again.
I looked at Miri because she and I could not say the same. We had fucked each other into oblivion in Malibu.
Until it doesn’t hurt. All we have is us.
That was what we’d promised.
“What about you two?” Lex nodded to me and Miri. “Summer getaways and Malibu Dream Houses?”
“That was two years ago,” Miri said.
“But you were together, right?” Lex raised his eyebrows, expecting a response.
I sighed and ran my hand over the back of my head, trying to find the best way to break this news. “It’s complicated.”
