Page 53 of Thrust into the Light
Iwish this night would end. We all fucked up tonight, well except Zachariah, but he was in class, though he would have fucking thought the same thing. Gods, the way she reacted to everything. Zachariah called Healer Daniel to see if it’s anything we needed to be worried about. He said it sounded like a panic attack. She thought she was back where the bastard hurt her, and didn’t know she was safe with us. He said there could be other triggers and we need to watch out for them and avoid them. If she does have another panic attack, we need to get her to breathe and calm her down.
Kramylor sits down, and I listen to his thoughts. Fucking Gods. And this is why I started finding out if they were going to accept Farlen before we told them anything. He doesn’t know if he wants her. Zachariah brings Farlen and sits her down. We all put a bit of everything on her plate and she starts eating. Everyone waits for Faith to get her food too, because if she eats everything and there’s nothing left for us, it’s fine. She’s more important than we are. Faith makes a hand motion, saying we can all get ours and everyone digs in. I tune my thoughts to Farlen to see how she likes her food. She doesn’t like the rice, but everything else she seems to like. Ah shit, not the lime, but she just licked it and didn’t squeeze it on anything. We are going to have to try that again and show her what to do.
She ate a lot more today than she had before. When she pushes her plate away from her, everyone smiles at her. I hear Kramylor fucking yelling about shit in his head and I tune into itto see what has him all wound up. THIS FUCKING MAN! Are you kidding me? Can’t you see she has been through so much fucking shit? Gods! He needs to leave now. If I have to sit here and hear him think things like that again about Farlen, I am going to fucking have Vashu hold him down while I rip out his teeth.
Faith asks about Farlen. I tune into Zachariah; he notices me looking at him;she says to tell her everything. Though we need to wait until it’s just her, and she can’t tell Kramylor, I don’t like the way he’s looking at her.
“We will get to it soon, Faith, but before we tell Kramylor anything, he’s going to have to have his match blood work confirmed and then he’ll have to answer a single question from us.”
He pushes himself away from the table and leaves. Good. If he can’t see what a fucking prize Farlen is, he doesn’t deserve her. She doesn’t need someone in her life who doesn’t know if they want her or not.
I look over at Zachariah. Gods, I wish I could project my voice into people's heads. They tried to teach me how to do it when I went to school here, but I could never get the hang of it.
“Are you doing it or am I?” I ask him.
“Farlen said I could tell her, so guess it’s on me this time.”
Vashu and Xander come over and give Farlen a hug. She melts into their touches, so it looks like that is going well. Xander touches his head like Farlen does. Guess this is a thing for our match group. I tune into Xander, nodding my head so he knows I’m listening.
We can’t listen to this again without ripping down the house, so we are going to go for a run. We’ll be back in like an hour, depending on how fast the dragon can fly and if he can keep up with me.
I nod at him. They got over their shit fast. Fuck, I am going to be kicking myself in the ass for a long time for that. All I could see when we opened the door was Vashu holding Farlens' leg up on the table. Her small little skirt flipped up and the damn thong she has on, on view for everyone, his enormous frame leaning over her. I thought the worst of my bond brother. Gonna have tobuy the dragon something shiny to say sorry.
“Farlen, do you want to be here for this? If you want to go listen to some music gorgeous so you don’t have to hear this, we all understand.”
“I want to be here. I can’t talk about all of it, but maybe I can explain some things better now.”
Zachariah nods at her. As he tells Faith about Farlen's life, I go over and pry her hands off Farlen. Girl is strong, and that was hurting her. Farlen smiles at me and sits next to me across from Faith. Faith looks remorseful about what she did. At least she seems like she’s going to be a fixture in Farlens' life. When Zachariah tells Faith about what he did to her, and her consequent fear of sex, Faith runs into the kitchen and vomits. She sits back down and nods to Zachariah. Damn, that girl has some enormous balls. It took everyone a long time to digest that information. Zachariah ends with what happened today.
She nods her head, and it’s so damn tempting to listen to her, but she doesn’t seem to stop the flow of her mouth, so I’m sure we will find out what she is thinking soon. She looks over at Farlen and I swear I can feel the love pouring out of them in just that one look.
“Alright, well, I’m guessing I’m not to tell Kram any of this until you all talk to him, which is good, because I don’t think I could speak of this shit to anyone. It isn’t my story to tell. I want to get penciled into Farlen time. I’m going to take her shopping and show her how to do girly shit. Who knows, maybe we will get matching BFF tattoos or both get our labia pierced!”
Farlen starts to talk and I hold my finger over her lips. I already know where this is going. “I will explain to you what labia is later.”
Faith laughs. Then she stops and glares at me. “That better be with just words and not with a physical explanation.”
“None of us are going to touch Farlen that way until she is ready for it. If it takes decades, we are all ready to wait until she’s ready. Even if she never is, we are here for her, and as long as you don’t mind one of us tagging along with you on your ‘Farlentime’ I’m good with it, though no shopping, I took her out to get clothes when we first got here and it wasn’t a good experience.”
Faith nods. “I have so many clothes I don’t wear anymore because they got too small on me. I could drop them off for her if you all want? I think they might still be big on her, but I’m not going to get any smaller, ya know? And if she can’t go shopping, then she can just shop in my closet! Oooo, we could do a makeover! I could do her hair and makeup and then we can have her try on different clothes and she can show them off for you guys.” Faith is nodding her head. I tune into her thoughts because she looks so sure of herself.She could totally pull off that black skirt I have. Though I don’t know how my shirts are going to fit her, the bitch has such big breasts. Ah well, at least I’m taller than her. She has boobs and I have three inches on her! Seems like a fair trade to me!
I bite my fist to stop myself from laughing. I think she’ll be good for Farlen. It may help her come out of her shell more. I glance at Farlen and she looks like she wants to ask something. I squeeze her hand, “Whatever it is you want to say sweet girl, just say it, Faith understands a lot more now, so she knows whatever you want to say isn’t something she should be upset by.” Farlen nods her head and looks at Faith, she bites her lower lip. When did she start doing that? Zachariah is transfixed on her mouth as she nibbles her lip.
“Does sex always hurt?” Damn, should have seen that question coming.
“Oh! No, well, bad sex sucks, but only the first time hurts. But good sex, ohmygods good sex is what makes this life worth living. It is one of the greatest feelings in the world.”
“Why does the first time hurt but not after? It always hurt before.”
Faith looks to Zachariah and me. I put my hands in the air. You wanted in girl, here’s your chance.
“Uhhhhhhhhh. Man. Well, I guess this is good practice for when I have kids of my own one day. Well see, women have something called a hyman…” I tune out. I know how it all works, thanks to my mom, and I’m not a virgin. That conversation was painful enough with my mom. I don’t need to hear it from someone who is a complete stranger. Farlen is tugging on my hand, so I look down at her.
“Sorry sweet girl, I was thinking of other things like what to make for lunch tomorrow. What was your question?”
“Faith says that all penis’s feel like steel but are really soft. Is yours like that?” Gods I’m praying one day she will find out for herself. I nod my head to her.
She looks over at Faith again. “I have another question. Vashu’s penis was really big, and he said it got bigger, but HIS wasn’t. If HIS hurt me that bad, why won't it hurt really bad with Vashu? And will there always be blood? You said a little blood the first time, but there’s always been so much blood.”
