Page 50 of Thrust into the Light
“Then just don’t answer her questions, maybe ask her what her favorite flavor of ice cream is, or what her favorite song is, maybe have her show you it.”
“Okay.”
Connor opens up the outside door to the house and walks in. He turns around and smiles at me. I walk in and look to where he looked when he first walked in. Standing there are Xander and Vashu. There is a new big table, and it looks just like the one from my dream. Xander and Vashu are both holding a lot of plants. The plants Xander is holding are all white, and they look like they have pokey things on the green part of them. The plants Vashu is holding are a lot of different colors, and none of them look like the other ones. I don’t see any pokey parts on those. They are both holding the plants out in front of them.
“We wanted to get you something you haven’t had before, snowflake. So the big guy and I decided to get you some flowers. They smell really nice.” His eyebrows do a strange wiggle. How did he do that? At least he didn’t do the eyebrow raise thing. I walk over to the flowers they are holding out and smell them. The white ones smell nice and I smile at Xander. I move overto the ones Vashu is holding. Each one of them smells different from the rest, but when I stand back a little from them and smell them all, it smells even better than the ones Xander has.
“I’m going to go see if we have a vase or two to put them in,” Connor says, and walks into the kitchen.
I smile at Xander and Vashu.
“Do you like them?” Vashu rumbles.
“They are very nice.”
“Which one smells better? It’s mine isn’t it, told you dragon she’s like mine more.” Xander says.
“Vashu’s flowers smell better,” I say.
Xander looks sad when I say it, and Vashu looks happy.
“Your flowers smell good too, Xander!” I blurt. He still looks sad.
“It’s okay snowflake. The next present we get you, I know you’ll like mine more! We picked up some food. We weren’t sure what you’d want. The dragon said you liked the burrito he got you, so we decided to buy a bunch of food like it for you to try!”
“Oi! Connor! Where do you want me to leave your card? Dude, how much money do you have? You bought this fucking table and all that food! I’d have to save up for a fucking year just to get that table!” Xander walks into the kitchen as he says it and is yelling at Connor.
Vashu is still standing there, holding out his flowers. I walk towards him and grab the flowers. He lets me take them and picks me up and gives me a hug. I can’t even get my arms around him most of the way. They stop at his armpits. I wiggle my hands to try to get them behind him more and he starts to laugh and then stops and stands very still.
“No tickling. That isn’t fair.”
“I don’t know what tickling is.”
He sets me down on the table and moves close to me.
“Oh, you don’t? We’ll see about that.” He starts to move his fingers along my skin, moving them around like he is wiggling them. It feels strange, but it doesn’t make me laugh like he does. He breathes hard through his nose and then does the fingerwiggle on my stomach and my sides. His eyes do the strange blink thing, but it still doesn’t make me laugh. He looks down at my legs and grabs one and brings it up, so it’s sticking straight in the air. He takes off my shoe and sock from that foot and does the finger wiggle to my foot. Still nothing. He almost looks like his eyes are closed, but there’s still a little of them open as he looks at me. I feel his hand move up my leg, and he stops behind my knee. He does the weird finger wiggle there, and it makes me laugh.
“Gotcha.” He says. He does it again and again and I can’t stop laughing. I try to get away from him, but he still has a hold of my leg and won’t stop the finger wiggling.
“No, no stop! Please stop!” I laugh the entire time he’s doing it, and it’s starting to make my stomach hurt.
The door to the kitchen opens really fast and slams into the wall. It doesn’t close like it usually does. Both Connor and Xander are standing there, staring at us. Xander comes over and grabs Vashu by the neck. My neck prickles. I remember HIM grabbing me like that.
“No Xander please don’t! Please don’t hurt me. I won’t talk again. I am sorry. Please don’t use the knife again.” I curl up in a ball on the table. I don’t want to be cut again. I don’t want to feel the knife in my skin, or feel the knife in my bones as he spends a lot of time doing things to my bones. My body starts to shake. I close my eyes and try to find my happy spot. I don’t want to be hurt again. Where is Connor at? Where are Rhi, Vashu and Xander? Where are the other eyes that don’t have faces yet? Why aren’t they here to help me?
I hear another door open fast, and two sets of feet come to me fast. He never had people here with me before. I am afraid, is this the person he said was going to take care of me so he’d never have to see me again? I want the guys. I don’t want to go with them. I want to be back in the house.
“WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU GUYS DONE TO HER? WHY IS SHE SHAKING AND CRYING LIKE THAT?” The voice sounds familiar. It isn’t a male voice. When he talked about getting rid of me, it was never about a female taking me, it was about anothermale. I feel arms pick me up and we bounce like we are moving. I don’t want to go. I want the guys. Why aren’t they here? I can’t make a noise. If I do, he’ll hurt me more. I can’t move. If I move, he’ll get the fire.
I try to find my happy spot but I can’t find it. I can’t get to it. Why can’t I get to it? I don’t want to see what he is going to do to me.
Another door opens and closes. The arms that were holding me aren’t anymore. I try to understand where I am with my eyes still closed. I still don’t move and don’t make any noise. I don’t want to be hurt. It feels like I am on a bed. He never had a bed for me before. I always slept on the floor, or when he didn’t let my arms down from the chains, I’d sleep on my feet. There’s whispering. It sounds like a male and female; it isn’t HIM. I open one of my eyes quickly to see where I am. Then I open both of my eyes.
I don’t understand. I could have sworn I was back there. I could have sworn I felt his hands on my throat and was squeezing them. There is a male with his back to me and he is talking to a female. They are moving their hands around a lot as they talk. I can’t get my ears to work right. All I can hear is my heart. It’s going so fast. The female steps around the male and its Faith. She sees me and runs over to me. Her blue eyes look over my face, and she grabs my head and moves it around from side to side. Her eyes look kind of like the blue eyes from my dreams, but there isn’t any gold in them. Her lips are moving, but I can’t hear her. All I can hear is my heart still. She looks at me with tears in her eyes. She puts her hands on my head and then moves my head so she can see my ears.
I still don’t understand what is happening. Where are the guys at? Where is HE? Faith turns around to the male that is behind her. I am too afraid to look at him. I see the door open and close as he leaves. She is still trying to talk to me, but I can’t hear her. I take a few deep breaths to try to get my heart to calm down. HE isn’t here. It’s just Faith. Maybe she will know where the guys are? I take another deep breath and she is nodding her head atme. On the next deep breath, I can finally hear her.
“Good, good, just keep taking deep breaths. Calm down, Farlen. We can’t have your heart stopping on you again. Kram went to go get the Instructor so maybe he can figure out what the hell happened. Keep breathing, you’re doing so good.”
