Page 47 of Thrust into the Light
I don’t think anyone but me knows what she is talking about. So I look down at her and raise my eyebrow at her.
“That’s not fair Connor! I tried making my face do it, but it wouldn’t! The only way it worked was if I used my fingers to push my eyebrow up! How do you do it? Please tell me?”
Zachariah looks over at me and catches on. He raises hiseyebrow at her. She looks over at him.
“Howwww! I want to do it too! Is it something only guys can do? If it is only something guys can do, I want to be a guy too! Why do you all look like that? What did I say? Why can’t I be a guy like all of you? Then I can be taller, and not be so small, and maybe I can get big muscles like all of you.”
She does this in her thoughts a lot. She just kind of rambles about something. It’s part of the reason I give her privacy in her thoughts. She doesn’t need me listening to her ramblings, especially because sometimes it’s about us and our muscles. I have a thought, and I might get an ass chewing for it later on, but I’m going to give this a go.
“Farlen, how about this? We will all teach you how to do the eyebrow thing, but I want you to do something for me? I know you are scared about sex, and you have every right to be, but I want you to think about it. Have any of us hurt you? Or done anything to you that was mean? Just because what he did to you hurt, doesn’t mean that it would hurt with one of us. I want you to stay very still, and not move, I am going to touch you with my mouth on your neck, if you don’t like it say stop and I will move away, but if you like it, just please think about what I said okay, and we will teach you.”
“I will think about it, and I know you guys wouldn’t hurt me. Even when you get angry, you are never angry at me. Rhi said that I am where home is, but you guys are where my home is. And I have thought about that before, you guys are all so nice to me, and you make me feel so light, which I have never felt before, and that night you and Rhi touched my back I wanted to know what it felt like for you guys to touch me all over, because it felt so right in my heart. I never had those feelings before.”
I lean down and kiss up the side of her neck. She makes small little moaning noises and throws her head back, giving me more access to her neck. Zachariah comes over and adds his mouth to the other side of her neck. She is breathing heavily and moaning. I pull back and Zachariah gives her neck a little nip and she groans. He pulls back and smirks at me.
“That was. I still don’t know the words to say it. But it made my stomach really low, feel tight and fluttery.” Xander, Vashu, and Zachariah groan. She looks over at them and then back to me, “I’ll think about it, Connor, because if sex with you guys feels as good as that, we are going to have sex every day.” Everyone groans now and Farlen is looking around at everyone, confused.
“Why do you guys do that sometimes? Did I say something wrong or do something wrong? Is everything okay with you guys? Are you in pain? Do we need to get Healer Daniel in here to check on you?” Zachariah adjusts himself while she is looking at me. He gets her attention so everyone else can fix themselves.
“No gorgeous you didn’t do anything wrong or say anything wrong, just when you talk like that you make all of us a little excited because we want to make you feel that good all the time, and it is hard for us to control ourselves when you talk like that.”
“Oh! Okay, I will try not to talk like that then.”
“Nooooo.” Everyone says, glad I’m not the only one then.
She laughs and smiles at all of us.
Zachariah looks down at her and looks over at all of us. “Fuuuuuck, I wish I didn’t have class this morning, but I have paperwork I need to go work on.” He reaches up and cups Farlen's cheek and brushes his fingers across it. She gasps and smiles at him and leans her head into his touch more. She closes her eyes and I swear I can feel the peace and tranquility rolling off of her. Gods, please let her have this much joy in her life every day.
Vashu pulls out his phone. “Eh fuck it, Instructor Payne knew where I was, and he was late for class, anyway. Might as well skip the end of it and just go to shifter class.”
Zachariah leaves out the door, with one last glance at Farlen. I pull out my phone to check the time.
“Shit, your shifter class starts in fifteen minutes. We’re going to have to run someone carry Farlen.” Xander scoops her up and we take off towards the training field.
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Farlen
Xander picks me up and begins to run with me. I can feel his hands as he holds my naked legs. He is holding me tight, but it isn’t painful. I can feel his entire body pressed up against mine and it makes me feel like it did when Connor and Rhi kissed my neck. I lean my head closer to him and take a breath in through my nose. I can smell him, but I don’t know what it is. It’s nice though.
“Did you just sniff me, snowflake?”
“I wanted to know what you smell like. But I don’t know what it is.”
“Well, anytime you want to sniff me, go for it. When you finally figure it out, let me know.”
“Okayyyyy, but I don’t know a lot of things, so it may take me a while to figure it out. You smell good, though.” I put my head on his chest as he runs. One day I am going to run with them too. His chest starts to rumble and my stomach rumbles too. He stops running and lets go of my legs and uses one hand to lower me down his body. It makes my brain go fuzzy, and it’s hard to think right for a second.
I hear a sniffing noise and I look around. Instructor Payne is standing there, looking like he is crying. He turns around and makes a few strange noises.
“Alright everyone, we are going to continue working on partial shifting. Spread out and give everyone room. Remember what we talked about last time? Don’t let your beast overpoweryou. Far-Far-Farlen I think you have a good idea on meditation, what I want you to do is meditate, but I don’t want you to go far this time, stay close to all of us, but I want you to try to get to know your beast, what do they feel like, do you feel like they will listen to you if you ask them to do something, do they feel like they a part of you, or like they are separate? Connor, you might as well sit with her. Xander and Vashu need to spread out so they can try their partial shifts. Fucking Gods, I said partial shift Francis.” He walks over to a strange-looking creature. Its skin is dark, and it has eyes on the top of its head and a big mouth with lots of teeth in it. There are strange parts of its skin that poke up and he has four legs.
I try to move away from Xander and he gives me a hug and then steps away and finds a spot to do what Instructor Payne said. Vashu walks over to me and picks me up. He gives me a big hug and I can put my arms around his neck when he does it. He sets me down on the ground and walks the other direction from Xander. Connor comes over and looks around.
“Well, here seems like it’s good enough. No one is close to us.” He sits down on the ground.
I go to sit down and remember I’m not supposed to bend over, so it takes me a few minutes to figure out how to sit down without bending over. Once I sit down, I feel within myself for my rumbly spot. It feels warm, and the surrounding area feels warm too. I keep moving further away from it, and it gets a little colder away from it. But it doesn’t feel like it's anything different from me. I don’t know what to say to a beast.
