Page 123 of Hell Bound
And that was the one thing I could no longer do.
Chapter29
Lilith
Iwatched Lucifer walk away from me without a backward glance. Sure, I’d already accepted that we had to be far more careful, but this was so much more than that.
There was a vast difference between not winding up naked in the stables and refusing to even make eye contact.
Since the night it happened, I’d wanted to pull him aside and discuss the “Odragir Situation” as I’d come to refer to it in my mind. Every time I’d tried, however, he’d managed to shrug me off.
I wasthisclose to pulling the queen card and demanding that he stop the bullshit and just talk to me.
Was he mad? He couldn’t be. Surely Pyp had told him I’d spent the rest of the night in the Clubhouse with her and Killian. If not, he’d have killed Odragir by now.
So what the fuck was his problem?
As angry as it made me, it hurt even more.
This last time was the final straw. I wanted to believe the best, but I’d been disappointed too many times before, and I wasn’t going to keep chasing after a man who decided he didn’t want me.
Though I was loath to return to my cell, staying out and wandering the castle was worse.
Not only did it increase the chances I would run to Lucifer and get another taste of that cold shoulder, but more and more demons flooded the place as the kickoff for the Infernal Court drew near.
I had to admit, I was enjoying the break from Asmodeus. Every time I saw him, his head was neck deep in someone’s ass, sucking up to those he wanted to develop inroads with.
My dearest wish was that his head would get stuck up there.
Shutting myself into my room, I shrieked when I turned to find Hana there. She was stepping out of the bathroom with towels and my discarded gown from this morning.
“You scared me to death!” My hand was clenched around the doorknob, ready to bolt before I saw who my intruder was. “What are you doing here so early?”
“I’m sorry, my lady, I’ll g—”
“That’s not what I was saying, Hana.” My tone was exasperated even though I tried to hold it back. It seemed like none of the relationships I’d believed I was building here were on the level I’d believed them to be. “You usually just come closer to dinner.”
I crossed the room and flopped on the bed, stomach first. The temptation to grab the pillow and bury a scream in it was strong.
Just when I thought things were finally lining up, when I thought Lucifer and I were going to work together to come up with a way out, Asmodeus had once again found a way to fuck it all up.
“Are you alright, my lady?”
“My fucking god,enoughwith the ‘my lady’ shit!” I rolled and sat up so fast there were three Hanas for a second. “I get that you have to keep up the schtick when the others are here, but it’s me and you. We may not be friends like we were, but you can damn well call me by my fucking name.”
Her eyes widened, and I worried for a second that she might cry.
I should have been more concerned for myself.
“You,Lilith,are the most selfish, arrogant, blind demoness I’ve ever met! You didn’t see it before until it was almost too late, and you’re making the same stupid mistakes now!”
She flung the pile of fabrics in her hands to the floor, striding over until she was right in my face, index finger a centimeter from my nose.
“Look at you moping around in here! You’re so worried about whether Lucifer is speaking to you, about if he likes you, you can’t even stop to realize that helovesyou, and everything he does is for you! Even to the detriment of his own safety, and everyone else’s, it’s all about you!”
Okay, so she wanted to do this? I had plenty of pent up frustration that needed an outlet.
Let’s fucking go.
