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Diverting my gaze from her, hating what I was about to say. The word that would hurt her more than they did me. She was more important than anything. She was all I wanted.
“An heir.”
Tears welled in her eyes again, and I shook my head. “I don’t want a pup. You know that. It would have been a blessing if we have one. But I was okay with the idea of never having one. I don’t want to lose you. So, he can shove it up his ass. I don’t need an heir to claim this imaginary throne of his, I only need you by my side.”
The weakness in her voice when she said, “Okay,” shattered me. I didn’t know what else to say to make her feel better, to ensure she knew we were going to be okay.
Even though I could feel her emotions through our bond, it still wasn’t enough to fully understand what was going on in that head of hers.
-Joanne-
The night sky was filled with stars and the moon hiding behind some fluffy clouds did nothing for the turmoil in my mind.
Isaac and I caught up with the others, and I was too emotionally drained to tell them I wanted to move to another spot.
To the spot I went with my family every year.
First, I pretended to be asleep, hearing Isaac arguing with William again about what Emlyn said. I don’t even know why William was arguing, there was nothing wrong with Isaac’s words, so I blamed it again on the stress of everything.
The argument went on to the need for an heir and how that was impossible. Isaac didn’t tell him about my problems, only about his own fears. I was grateful for that.
It even surprised me how Isaac kept his temper in check, especially when William pushed Isaac into reconsidering the heir thing, to try to have a child with me in the future.
And then it went on about how William believed that Emlyn was full of shit and we didn’t have the time to look into it. We should be hitting the road, like now.
I agreed with him, silently, of course. It was the right thing to do, run again. However, I wasn’t going anywhere until I found that spot those memories showed, and I had to get back to doctor Shaffer tomorrow.
He was absolutely furious when he broke the news and told me he needed to get permission to tell me more.
Permission from whom?
The only thing I knew was, there was a pack here. A fucking strange pack that smells like fire. And Isaac couldn’t smell it.
I sighed, turning to my side.
Isaac.
I couldn’t give him what he needed. Even though he told me he didn’t need it, I knew he wanted to be a father, and I knew what I had to do to give him that.
Besides that, he was a born Alpha. He missed it tremendously, he missed the pack life.
If I didn’t try to fix this, it would mean he could never reclaim his position or this fairytale throne, he could never be what he wanted to be. Being forced to live in the shadows.
I didn’t want that for him. He deserved more. I deserved more. Me not having a wolf was my problem all along, and I had to change that, one way or another.
And I knew exactly who was going to help me.
The sounds of birds chirping made my eyes flutter open. The morning breeze made me shiver, and I glanced back, noticing Isaac had left.
Perfect.
My lips curled into a smile, and I slowly got up. I had to do this quickly before Isaac came back from his morning run.
Getting myself ready as best as possible before I tiptoed towards Conner, who stood leaning against a tree on guard duty.
He never says no to me and the moment he met my gaze his shoulders dropped with a heavy sigh.
“I’m fucked, aren’t I,” he muttered in defeat.
