Heeven threatened to shoot the guys if they didn’t let him see me with his own two eyes.Theyall knew he wouldn’t actually do that so they let him in because they knew you can’t stop a man from seeing his woman when he’s that determined.
Hespent that night with me cuddling in bed and it’s no wonderIslept so peacefully.Itold them all not to let him know thatIknow he’s here and they all said they wouldn’t.
Idid that because as much asIstill feel conflicted toward him,Istill don’t want him to hurt himself.It’salso whyImoved to the hotel becauseIknow he’d end up finding his way back to my bed while he was here.
Wheneverwe were anywhere in the same vicinity of each other, we never slept alone.AndIwas right, my first night in the hotel he snuck in—well not really since he had a key becauseIgaveHunterone to give to him—and he slept next to me the entire night and left beforeIwoke up.
Hestill doesn’t know thatIknow he’s here.AndbecauseIknow he is, wheneverIleave the hotel to go out,Ialways spot him following me.Hegives me space and tries to be stealthy butIalways spot him.
I’mnot sure how long he’s going to hold out on letting me know he’s here but so far, he’s been giving me space.Forthe most part he arrives sober but then there are some nights he comes in super drunk.
Iguess those are the days when something is bothering him.Thoseare the nights whenIget to watch him sleep for a change and it breaks my heart to see him like that.
Istill haven’t mentioned the babies yet andI’mworking my way up to that soon.I’mstill talking to my therapist andI’veworked through some of my issues but not all of them yet.Iguess that conversation is going to happen sooner or later.
Istep into the bathroom to take a shower sinceAdelaideis coming over today to spend some girl time together.Ipull my shirt over my head and am left in only my panties,Icatch my reflection in the mirror and almost freak the hell out.
Ithrow my robe on and rush out the bathroom and grab my phone, dialingAdelaide.Sheanswers on the first ring. “Getover here now!”
“I’mhere already heading to the elevators now.Seeyou in a sec.Issomething wrong?”
“I’lltell you when you get up here,”Ilet her know before hanging up.Ipace the living room until the elevators open a moment later and she walks in.
“What’swrong babe?What’sgot you so worked up?”
“Whatthe hell is this?”Iscreech asIopen my robe to show her.Iexpect her to freak out with me but nothing of the sort happens.Instead, she squeals like a girly girl and rushes over to me.
“OhmyGod!Thebump has finally made its appearance!” she squeals some more as she rubs my stomach.
“Isit supposed to pop out this big without notice?Imean yesterday it was barely there!”
“Well, you are having twins so the bump would be a bigger one compared to just having one baby,” she tells me logically.Iended up telling her about the babies a few days afterItoldHunterbecauseIneeded a girl to talk to about pregnancy stuff, asIwas not going to do that with my brother.
“NowI’mdefinitely going to have to tell him about the babies,”Igrumble. “Ican’t put this off for much longer because now thatI’mshowingI’llprobably start getting huge pretty soon.EvenifIdon’t say anything yet the man caresses my entire body every night, since he thinksI’masleep by the time he sneaks in.SoIknow he’ll notice the change right away.Atthis pointI’mpretty sure he knows my entire body perfectly.”
“Andyou’re going to look cute carrying those babies!I’msure he’s going to be excited to hear that he’s going to be a father.Bythe way he’s outside the hotel,” she tells me.
“Whenisn’t he?Howlong do you think we have until he storms in here and finally lets me know that he’s here?”
“I’dsay you’ve got maybe an hour or so.Helooked like he was two seconds away from losing it whenIsaw him and?—”
Beforeshe can finish speaking, the elevator doors open andMasonstorms in with a wild expression in his eyes.Shit!Wewere too busy talking, andIwas freaking out, thatIdidn’t hear the ding that should have alerted me that someone was in my elevator.DidImention thatIalso didn’t close my robe?
“Whatis that?” he asks dumbfounded for a moment before he breaks into a smile and starts to walk toward me.
“I’mpregnant.Idon’t know if it’s yours or not,”Itell him. “Itcould be yours or it could beAntonio’s.”
Idon’t know why the fuckIsaid that.MaybeIjust want to know what he’d do or maybeIjust want to fight.Whothe hell knows?Hestops in his tracks at my words but then he starts walking again and gently wraps me up in his arms.
“Idon’t care!Ilove you and that is my baby no matter what happens.We’regoing to raise him or her as ours.Thatbaby will never have one ounce of that fuck in him or her,” he growls intensely.
“Whatare you doing here?”
“I’mhere to take you and our baby home,” he tells me.
“I’mnot ready to leave yet.Andit’s not our baby.It’smine.Idon’t fucking trust you to be anywhere near me or this baby!Lookat what you did to me.HowcouldIever trust you around something as innocent as a baby?”Isnap and watch as his face falls, pain etching his eyes with my every word.Tobe honest,Idon’t even know how the hellIgot pregnant in the first place.ButIdon’t care becauseIalready love the two of them so much already.
Ihonestly don’t mean to fight with him or say things to hurt him butIthinkI’vefinally figured out whyIdidn’t tell him about the babies yet.It’sbecause subconsciously,I’mstill scared.
