Page 50 of Passing Notes
I lifted my head to watch her beautiful face as she regained her senses. “We’re not finished yet.” I pulled out, smiling when she gifted me with a little whine at the loss.
“I wanted to keep you inside,” she murmured. “Just for a little bit longer?—”
“Hush, baby, I need more. I want the sight of you undone like this embedded in my mind. Emblazoned so deep within my psyche that I’ll never forget how it feels to make you let go for me. If this is my only chance, I’m making the most of it. Spread your legs for me.”
Without hesitation she lifted her knees to her sides. I slid down her body, biting my lip as her slick wet arousal painted my abs and chest on the way. “I will never get enough of this,” I growled into her inner thigh. “I can’t believe I survived without you for this long.”
She was sensitive so I took it easy on her, soothing her with soft licks and swirls of my tongue until she planted her feet on the bed and lifted her hips, shoving her pussy in my face with a demanding moan.
“Please . . .”
I looked up the length of her body, one hand fisting the sheets, head thrashing side to side as her back arched and her rosy-tipped nipples turned into hard little peaks as she pinched one between her fingertips.
I stopped. “Look at me,” I demanded. “I need to see it happen.”
She let her legs drop to the sides and met my eyes as she rose to her elbows on the bed, watching me as I licked my lips and pressed my chin to her clit.
“My god, Nick. You’re gonna kill me tonight, aren’t you?”
I shook my head as I sucked her clit back into my mouth and moved my tongue against her with relentless little flicks until she went wild, pulling back from my mouth and bucking her hips as she shoved a hand between her legs to spread herself apart with her fingers and send herself over the edge. I watched as she flew into pieces beneath me, gorgeous and wild.
I remembered this. The two of us together and uninhibited, shamelessly exploring each other’s bodies as we learned what would drive each other crazy. We were so fucking in love back then, and had all the trust in the world.
I wanted it back—I didn’t care what I had to do to get it.
She’d trust me again. It was only a matter of time.
“Let me hold you.” I wiped my mouth with the back of my hand and moved up the bed to gather her in my arms.
“Mm-hmm.” Her head came to rest on my chest. She was boneless, completely relaxed against me. “You killed me. I knew it,” she mumbled into my pec. “I’m dead.”
My soft laugh ruffled her hair as it spilled across my chest. “Nah, you’ll recover. Then we’ll do it again.”
We drifted off to sleep together, waking up when the early morning light shone through my window. I’d forgotten to pull the blackout curtains closed.
She stretched, shifting in my arms to face me. “I should go home, right? It’s almost morning. We have to keep this a secret, don’t we? The kids...”
“Damn it. Yes. Morgan and I have an agreement?—”
A brief look of hurt crossed her face before she hid it. “I understand. It makes sense.” She moved to get up, but I stopped her.
“I fucking hate this. Listen to me before you go. Will you? Please.”
“I’m listening, I promise. I’m not trying to run off or escape, I?—”
I placed a fingertip to her lips. “I know, baby. We’re not going backward again. This isn’t a push-pull thing between us anymore, okay? I’m in this for real and I think you are too.”
“I don’t want to pull away. I don’t want to run from you anymore. But I’m not going to lie to you either. The thought of being together again freaks me out a little, Nick, and I’m not sure I’m ready to go all in just yet. Can we have a push-pause thing if I need it?”
“Absolutely. As long as we’re honest with each other, everything will be fine.”
I slipped into a pair of pajama pants and gave her one of my T-shirts to wear home. We gathered her clothes on the way to the front door, but I wasn’t ready to let her go.
I yanked her into me, banding an arm around her hips and winding my fist into her hair to bring her lips to mine. “I wish you could stay, but they’ll be home in just an hour or so...”
Her hands cradled my face. “It’ll be okay, baby. I’m not going anywhere.” She laughed. “I mean, I’m going home, but I’m with you, Nick. I promise.”
“Text me when you get inside.” I let go of her and opened the door, sighing when she stepped across the threshold onto the porch. It was stupid, but I felt like I was losing her all over again.
